I don't understand the pain I go through but I do. The pain that people put me through is horrible but i still put a big smile on my face and fake it til I make it. You can see the pain in my eyes but what do you do? Hurt me!! Again and again,time and time, I let you hurt me but then again I am to blame. I let it happen, I let you control me, I let you take my life away, I let you hurt me mentally and physically. You didn't deserve it! You didn't to the love and affection I still gave because of my daddy issues. I thought what I was experiencing was the real love but it was all fake, the question still reminds tho... Did you ever love me? Or was it all fake just too take something I keep from every men that came and went. Or does your mommy let treat girls the way you do. See when introduced your mother to me I thought it was a step in a good future it it was always ten steps farther back. Your mom never like me, even encouraged your cheating and manipulating ways to me. But not once I spoke up to you, out of respect to my elders. All because you told me that's just how she acts, that she treats everyone who is new in her life rough. She will warm up to you just give her time is what you said but sure I kept our relationship a secret because you "mistakenly told her we broke up" to get her off your back about finding someone new. Yes you went on dates to " prove her wrong and that you weren't stuck on me". I'm seeing different now though and I'm glad I am see you for what you are now. A monster and you will meet your match! The way I see it is your a boy who just don't understand how to treat a girl so that girl will treat you. The cheating, the lying, the abuse, the mental abuse, the mind games. I hope she does it all and have you by her little finger and makes you so little of your life you fell in a deep depression that you never come out of. I hope when catch her cheating she does in front your face and I hope she hurts you like you did me without mercy. The last thing I hope for you is simple... I hope when you see me I'm high on life and my smile is beautiful as the eye can see. That ain't have move on from the horror you have cost and am I with someone who makes mine past.. Mine past, so far that your on my past and I won't remember my bad past. And your in need of help and desperation you think without asking. Then realizing that what you had, you let go and now someone has a better version of me and not the one that you put pain through and made me suffer. Is the last thing I told my first boyfriend, my first everything. You know what funny I thought that love meant you were the only one that gives but really it's an equal partnership that's split down the middle with and without limits. But your gonna learn the real reasons we're no longer a thing...
TO BE CONTINUE...
The reason why I wrote this was because this story is little bits of part of me but you know we all go through pain but handled it differently there's always a different way though. But off topic did y'all like Suga mv because the way he eats is something else. Can't wait to see more of him. But again thanks for reading bye love bugz idk if you like the new nickname I gave so comment an nickname y'all would like to be called.
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The Lost Hope
RomanceAbout a girl with daddy issues that she's trying to solved but always falls back on her knees... Until one day her life changes and meets her true love. That makes her want to improve her mind, be a better person.
