𝘼𝙇𝙇 𝙁𝙊𝙍 𝙉𝙊𝙏𝙃𝙄𝙉𝙂, 𝘤𝘩𝘳𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘰𝘭𝘰

𝚒𝚟. ❝ ᴅᴀɪʟʏ ᴅᴏꜱᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴍᴀʀɪ ❞

CHAPTER FOUR!

ᴺᴼᵂ ᴾᴸᴬᵞᴵᴺᴳ , 𝒩 𝐸 𝒲 𝒴 𝐸 𝒜 𝑅 '𝒮 𝒟 𝒜 𝒴

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❝ ℙ𝕃𝔼𝔸𝕊𝔼 𝔻𝕆ℕ'𝕋 𝔼𝕍𝔼ℝ 𝔹𝔼ℂ𝕆𝕄𝔼 𝔸 𝕊𝕋ℝ𝔸ℕ𝔾𝔼ℝ ❞

   𝐒𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐊 𝐖𝐄𝐍𝐓 by like the snap of a finger and I had done nothing except watch Netflix and sleep.

   Seth kept inviting me to do stuff with him, along with some other people from school, but I wasn't really up for it. I was too exhausted to really even get out of bed.

   It's been one of those days where I don't want any sort of human interaction. I haven't been texting anyone back, I haven't even really been on my phone. I'm too tired to keep up with any conversations.

   Todays Monday, which means back at school, but I'm not gonna go. I had been up all night failing to fight my tears. I had nothing but everything to cry about. My eyes turned into a broken faucet as I wrapped myself deeper into my blanket.

   Does it ever get better? Unfortunately, for me the answer would always be no.

   How do I get myself out of this?
   How can I help myself?
   Why can't I help myself?
   Is this forever?
   When will it get better?

   Questions I ask myself everyday, the answer remaining the same everytime.

   I don't know.

   I wish I could skip to the good part. The part where this is all just a lesson learned. But you can't skip chapters. That's not how life works. You have to read every line. Meet every character. You won't enjoy all of it, you'll read things you don't want to read and have moments when you don't want the pages to end, but you have to keep going in order to understand it all in the end.

   It's been almost 4 years since I lost myself. I look in the mirror and see nothing but brown skin, brunette curls wrapped in a horrible bun, dark eye bags, and a face. Just a face. No emotion behind it, no feelings. Nothing. Just an empty face of a stranger that I once used to know. That I once used to love.

   I wanted all this to be over, but I'm afraid it's just starting.

3 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘕𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴

𝘔𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘢𝘨𝘦𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘶𝘯 ☀️

𝙢𝙮 𝙨𝙪𝙣 ☀️
where are you
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mari?
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please text me back
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starting to get worried
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