What Life Feels Like

What it feels like to be a child

Being a child is wonderful, we have an optimistic view about the world and we always think that everything in this world will come easy. At least easier than when we were an adult. 

I still remember how when I was a child I'd always wanted to grow up and I'd see the world and what's to come exciting. I have plans on who and what to become, it changes a lot but I wouldn't mind about it at all. Sometimes I'm a doctor and sometimes I'm a police and my characteristics would follow what I wanted to be at that time. 

Being children is kinda like being a water that flows fluidly. The environment around us at that time truly do shape who we become. We'd start acting like our favorite super hero after watching a movie or we'd simply copy one or two things from our friends. We didn't really have a sense of self, and truly it WAS ok. That, to me is the most amazing thing about being a child. Somehow you are more flexible and not fixated on who you have to be, but you explore freely about your feelings and how you want to impact the world later on.

The less pleasant thing about being a child though is peers. Somehow being a child is like standing in the gateway of the society and it's 'views.' 

Suddenly we have to try and fit into a group of friends, and some might not be so accepting. I don't know about you, but I'm pretty sure for a lot of people, at some point of being a child, we received rejection from our peers. Over simple things at that. In this stage in life is where we first learn of trying to alter ourselves to be likable.

So, when I was a child I'd really hope my guradians would ask me how school was in a non condescending way, and in a way where they truly are curious and caring. I'd really hope someone would listen about my struggles no matter how silly being unable to fit in because my pencil case is not pink enough according to the other girls. 

Again, as a child we don't understand why being different is okay. We'd get unpleasant treatments because of being different. That's why I hope I could really be a place of comfort for my kids to open up and talk about 'silly matters' and I want to be able to see it as something that TRULY matters, because again as i've said multiple times in previous chapters, humans develop, and at this point in time this whole acceptance thing is a HUGE DEAL for children.