Complete Me

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I am currently waiting at the entrance outside for all the players to come. I have a list with me, so we'll forget no one, it is like a class trip. Jordan is the first one to come, behind him are Ibrahim and Curtis, 3 minutes later James, Virgil, Joel, Ali,Joe, Sadio and Mo came. Everbody was in the bus besides Robbo and Trent. I waited for them another 10 minutes, Trent jogged towards the bus and Robbo couldn't care less, he walked like He's got every time in the world. After everbody was seated I went into the bus too, I sat alone at the front. I like to be alone before a match starts, I use the alone time to focus and to remember for who I am doing all this. Sometimes I get exhausted by all the work I do, I'll tell myself when I am so close to give up "Do it for yourself." '

I was bullied in school, basically for my looks. I was a hairy girl, not so skinny either. I had big eyebrows and every child in my class made sure for me to know how ugly my eyebrows are. At the age of 8 I already hated myself, I also wasn't a very good student, which made me think that I was dumb. My grandparents always compared me to my high achieving cousin who made me feel very uncomfortable. Growing up, I was very ambitious, very competitive and a honor student. Football was my safe place, I love to play and was really good at it. They didn't think that there was a place for me int heir house, so that they send me to Liverpool to stay with my aunt. They believed that if I would stay with my aunt, I would be able to play football. My aunt was secretly a cleaning staff at Anfield Stadium, she knew my interest in football, so she arranged a meeting with one of the Liverpool Fc girls academy coaches. I played well and they offered me a place! I proved myself that I am cappable to do anything. Most people would call me lucky, they don't see the hard work that I put in this.

I looked out of the window and saw all the fans gathered around the bus, they were screaming, shouting and singing "You'll never walk alone". As we arrived I was the first one to go out of the bus, people shouted my name to sign some of their stuff. I took a lot time to sign all those stuff, I didn't want to leave someone dissapointed. Trent did the same, he waited for me and we went together to the dressing room. I don't really go often into the dressing room, I don't want anyone to feel unconfortable and I cannot be the only woman in a room full of half naked men.

The players went out to greet the fans and warm up. Jürgen gave a motivational speech before kick off, he is good at doing those.

I was really nervous, really really nervous. If we loose it'll be my fault.

I was sitting on the bench the whole 80 minutes, I suddenly heard laud gasps and looked around. Trent was standing above a very injured Jude. I saw the replay on the big screens, Jude said something to him and Trent pushed him to the ground. They kept fighting and it escalated, everybody kept pushing one another. Even the bench players and Jürgen we're really angry, Jürgen was cursing and spitting towards the Coach of BVB. I was very confused, why is everybody so angry? Suddenly I saw Jude punching Trent right in is face. I was shocked, Jude got a red card and I saw how angry Trent got. I rushed towards them and took Trents arm, when he realised it was me he stopped being so tense, I took him outside of this chaos. Jude was still not letting him go, "Jude, fuck off." I told him and Ibrahim pushed him away from us. The game was canceled. 4 players got a red card and the some of them yellows. Even the coache got a red card.

I went into the dressing room waiting for everyone, needing an explanation.