Weakness | Natasha Romanoff

"I'm not letting him in our kids lives."

Oriana PoV:
It's a couple weeks later and we told the team. Sam started squealing like a little girl. Steve started crying. Rhodey teared up a little. Wanda said congratulations but as Natasha and I aren't that close to her, we didn't even expect a congrats.

"Ria, are you gonna come help my paint the baby's room today?" Natasha asked me and I shook my head.

"Natasha, my back genuinely feels broken so in the politest and most loving way possible, fuck off." I groaned, trying my best to focus on anything but my back.

"Ok." She sighed before giving me a kiss walking out our bedroom.

After three hours of being in immense pain I managed to get up to go to the toilet. Once I had done my business I decided it probably wasn't best to lay back down so I hobbled down into kitchen.

I found Yuliya FaceTiming Mj. "Are you ok?" She asked and I nodded.

"Yeah, totally." I chuckled while getting a salad out the fridge.

"Mj, i gotta go but I will call you later." Yuliya said.

"Bye Julia, tell Natasha and Ana I said hi." Mj replied making me smile.

"Ana? You two are on nickname levels- No tell me later." Yuliya stated before hanging up. "You look like you need to sit down."

"No because if I sit down then I will not be able to stand up again." I sighed while angrily stabbing lettuce and cucumber with my fork.

"You know, it's gonna get worst before it gets better." Yuliya explained making me groan.

"Of course I know that." I replied while angrily eating my salad. "What happens when I give birth? It's not like I'm going to be able to squeeze Natasha's hand without crushing it."

"Alexei's hand?" Yuliya warily suggested.

"That could work." I nodded. "As long as he isn't looking at my...area."

"You look like you need to talk?" She said and i nodded.

"I want to get Phil's tattoo removed." I sighed while holding my head in my hands as tears streamed down my face. "I just feel like if I do then I'm being so ungrateful. I'm so thankful that he was my dad and took me in when I was 17 but now...now he's gone again and I'm having a baby. I don't want him in their lives if he can just leave like that."

"You wouldn't be ungrateful getting it removed. I will not let him in my niece or nephews life. The amount of times I've held you sobbing over the man is insane." Yuliya stated making let out a teary chuckle.

"I love you." I cried onto her shoulder.

"I love you too." She replied while wiping my tears away.

"I think I'm gonna throw up." I grimaced before rushing into the downstairs bathroom.

"Only seven more months of this to go! Woo!" Yuliya cheered, trying to lighten the mood.

"Not helpful." I groaned while standing up to get a glass of water.

"I actually think I'm a very helpful person." She told me making me roll my eyes.

"No comment." I chuckled before going back to eating my salad.

After finishing my salad I went to help Natasha paint the baby's room. "Sorry about this morning." I apologised while picking a brush up and dipping it in the light green paint can.

"It's alright. I know the pregnancy is gonna be hard for you." She assured me after giving me a kiss on the cheek.

After an hour of painting we had to go to our ultrasound appointment. Mj came round to keep Yuliya company.

...

"Oh my god." Avery muttered as she looked at the screen.

"Is something wrong?" Natasha asked as she grabbed my hand, sensing my nerves growing.

"You're having twins!" Avery grinned making my jaw fall to the floor.

"I have to push two babies out!" I yelled in disbelief. "Two of them? I mean, I can't do that!" I panicked.

"Yes you can." Natasha assured me.

"No I cant. I am scared about one. I am scared about fucking one up. I am scared about not being a good mom. But I can't do two. That means possibly fucking two up, not being a good mom to two of them." I admitted while tears ran down my face.

"Oriana, I had triplets and I had the exact same reaction. I don't even know you that well and I know you're going to be a good mom. I would be worried if you didn't have these doubts." Avery explained making me relax slightly.

"I've got to push two...of them out." I stated while trying to sort my breathing out and gather my thoughts.

"They're both girls." Avery informed us making me let out a shaky breath.

"I'm getting an epidural, right?" I asked and Avery nodded. "Ok then I can do this." I said still trying to wrap my head around the fact I have to push two humans out my vagina.

"Yes you can do this." Natasha assured me while kissing my hand.

I wiped the gel stuff off my stomach and pulled my leggings back up before Natasha drove us home. "How'd it go?" Yuliya asked as soon as we got in the door.

"I have to push two humans out of me." I explained.

"You're having twins?" She questioned and Natasha nodded.

After her and Mj celebrated, Mj had to go home so I walked her out and gave her a hug before she left. "We need to order another baby bed." I told Natasha as I sat down next to her on the sofa.

"A crib?" Natasha chuckled and I nodded before resting my head on her lap.

"Yeah and I'm not going to be able to hold your hand when I'm giving birth otherwise I will crush it." I told her and Natasha nodded.

"You could hold Alexei's hand." She suggested and I smiled.

"That's what Yuliya said." I chuckled while she moved a stray piece of hair out my face. "I've got to phone Tony."

"Why?" Natasha asked as I got my phone off the coffee table.

"Remember when he made that cream to remove his drunken tattoo? Well I'm getting Phil'a tattoo removed." I explained.

"Why?" She repeated and I sighed.

"I'm not letting him in our kids lives. If he can just leave like he did then I don't want anything to do with him." I said before phoning Tony.

"Hey, do you still have that cream that removes tattoos?" I asked as soon as he picked up.

"It's at the compound." He replied.

"Can you meet me at the compound and give it to me please?" I questioned while looking at the tattoo.

"Yeah. Be there in 10." He told me and I hung up.

"I'm going to the compound quickly but I will be back soon." I said to Natasha before giving her a kiss.

"Ok. I'll put dinner on." She replied before I walked out the door.

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