Weakness | Natasha Romanoff

"That fucking man is always a cock block."

*10 MONTHS LATER*

Olivia PoV:
These past months have been really good. Well at first it was hard because of the therapy. At the beginning it made my nightmares worse and I didn't sleep for 5 days because I was to scared but then it got easier. I will never get over the shit I've been through but I can make it a little easier to think about.

I got a couple more tattoos. Three butterflies on my rib cage, an angle shooting a bow and arrow above my knee, two koi fish on my lower sternum, one that says 'born to die' under my ass because I love lana del ray and snake on my right ankle.

I got a few more piercings as well. I already had my firsts seconds and thirds lobe piercing done but I got my helix and daith done months ago, as well as my septum.

Lance got a new job, he won't tell me what it is though.

Dr Young diagnosed me with PTSD, depression, generalised anxiety disorder and traits of disordered eating.

I'm not seeing Dr Young anymore and Natasha and I are discussing adoption but we still have a long way to go until we actually put some forms through.

I'm happy within myself and it feels good. Around eight months ago Natasha and I finally had sex. I finally felt comfortable enough in my own body to do it. Natasha had been so unbelievably patient with me so when I finally told her I was ready we got straight to it.

Tonys throwing a party, to celebrate getting the sceptre, and I'm looking forward to it. I'm wearing a long, black, satin dress that has a slit in the side so you can see my hip/thigh tattoo. For shoes I'm wearing open toe black heels. I decided not to put any other necklaces on, other than the one I wore every day. The star necklace my dad got me. I still don't know what to do for my hair though.

"Is Clint alright?" I asked Natasha as she came into our bedroom.

"Yeah he's good as new. Dr Cho's machine was creating tissue, in all honesty it was a little freaky." She joked as we both started to get ready for the party.

"Sounds like it. I didn't mean to rush off, it's just you know how Lance gets if I don't call him straightaway after missions. Then I had a nap." I told her making her laugh.

"It's okay." She assured me.

"You should probably get some sleep before the party." I stated, pulling her in for a hug.

"I already did in the medical room, I didn't want to leave Clint." She told me and I nodded in response before giving her a kiss.

I did my makeup first. I decided not to do a full face as it was to much effort. I put concealer on the areas that needed it, a few coats of mascara, eye liner on my waterline and a little bit of lipstick.

I put my dress on but couldn't zip it up myself. "Tasha, can you zip my dress up please?" I asked and she nodded, walking over to me.

I felt one of her knuckles graze up my back, I felt the goosebumps on my skin and I knew she noticed by the smirk on her face.

Her hand made its way onto my hip as she kissed my neck. "Tasha as much as I would love having sex, I don't want to ruin my makeup just yet." I told her and she sighed before going back to do her hair.

I ended up curling my hair and doing a slick back half up half down ponytail. I felt hot. And Natasha made sure I was fully aware of it.

"Everyone at that party is going to want you." Natasha sighed and I chuckled.

"Well lucky for you then because I am all yours." I assured her, connecting our lips.

"Liv!" We both heard Lance shout down the corridor.

"That fucking man is always a cock block." I groaned going over to the door to open it.

"There you are! Sam ordered me to come and find you." He panted making it clear he ran to Nat and I's room.

"Sam's here?" I asked in excitement, grabbing Natasha's hand before I started walking downstairs.

"Yeah." He told me like it was the most obvious thing ever.

Natasha and I got a drink and sat with each other for a bit. Then Tony dragged me away and over to Rhodey, Maria and Thor.

"But you know, the suit can take the weight, right? So I take the tank, fly it right up to the general's palace, drop it at his feet. I'm, like, Boom. You looking for this?" He said as if it was supposed to impress us.

"Boom. Are you looking for...Why do I even talk to you guys? Everywhere else, that story kills." He questioned clearly annoyed we didn't have a better reaction to his story.

"That's the whole story?" Thor questioned making me choke on my drink from trying not to laugh. Rhodey shot me a glare which I ignored.

"Yeah, it's a War Machine story." He slightly mumbled.

"Oh, it's very good, then. It's impressive." Thor stated. In any other circumstance what he was saying would've sounded believable.

"Quality save." Rhodey sarcastically told the blonde before quickly changing the subject. "So, no Pepper? She's not coming?" Rhodey asked.

"No." Tony said clearly upset by whatever happened to make her not come.

"What about Jane?" Maria asked Thor who just awkwardly looked away. "God, where are the ladies, gentleman?" Maria asked and I smirked.

"Oh, Ms. Potts has a company to run." Tony shot back but I checked the time. 9:52pm

"At 10 o'clock?" I asked him making him glare at me.

"Yes, im not even sure what country Jane's in. Her work on the Convergence has made her the worlds foremost astronomer." Thor informed us making me roll my eyes.

"You don't know what country your girlfriend is in?" I judged making Thor glare at me and Maria suppress a laugh.

"And the company that Pepper runs is the largest tech conglomerate on earth. It's pretty exciting." Tony competed.

"There's even talk of Jane getting a, um, Nobel Prize." Thor shot back making me look at Maria and Rhodey in shock.

"Yeah they must be busy, because they would hate missing you guys get together." Maria taunted making me laugh.

"Testosterone!" Both of us said at the same time after coughing.

"I hate to break this whole pool of toxic masculinity up but since my girlfriend is actually present, I'm going to find her." I told them, mostly Tony and Thor, before walking off.

I down at the bar next to Natasha who was talking to Clint. He quickly excused himself and left us alone.

"Can we go upstairs quickly?" I asked, which meant 'can we have sex?'.

"You don't have to ask me twice." She replied before we both rushed upstairs.

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