𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐦 ❀ 𝙢𝙪𝙡𝙩𝙞 𝙞𝙢𝙖𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙚𝙨

gary trent jr-duke uni

request for @Thatstea22

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y/n's pov

y/n l/n •@yourtwitterusername • 30s ago

"i tell you guys everything, so i wanted to let you know that gary and i have decided that our relationship is over. the last 5 years have been great but we've mutually come to the decision that it is in the best interest of us both to spend time apart. we don't know how long that is, and it may be forever. we already had a pretty private relationship, and we would like to keep it that way through this whole process as well, so please no speculation. it's all love, and remember you only see what we want you to."

i added the last part into my tweet , knowing it would probably cause nothing but more speculation but it was true.

i had already talked to gary about announcing it, and he was quick to retweet and repost it on his various social medias. so did i.

this wasn't a messy breakup, but that didn't mean it didn't hurt.

i mean, i had devoted the last 5 years of my life to this man. we met in college, and the rest was literally history. not to be cliche.

5, almost 6 years of dating just gone. but that was the problem, the whole reason they were in this situation right now. because they had been dating for that long, with no sign of a change.

no engagement ring, no promise ring, not even a simple talk. i know marriage isn't everything, but it sure is something. for the first two years i understood, that was time to get to know each other and we were in college after all for part of it.

then the 3rd year, the nba. that's a huge change and there's not a lot of time for that. 4th year and 5th year, still busy but at this point that wasn't changing. not even a proposal? a courthouse wedding? forget that? the wedding could wait, i just wanted to feel secure in my OWN relationship.

now coming up on the 6th year, still nothing. we barely even talked about the idea. and when we did i always brought it up and he brushed me off. he claimed he wants to get married but i can't tell. i didn't care if people thought i was being unrealistic. i refuse to let someone hold me back.

i refused to beg anyone to be with me and take me seriously. to me , he had a lot of growing up to do. the breakup wasn't really mutual, but gary knew i was right and he had no choice but to accept that.

i also wanted to me a mother so badly, but i wanted to be settle well into my marriage for that. and time was running out. i know he will try to get me back, and rush to proposed. but that's forced and not genuine. i just wanted nothing more than for him to want me just because.

i told myself i wouldn't do it, but i scrolled through some of my comments. i tuned out any happy comments over our breakup . i had gotten good at ignoring trolls, even at low points. most of them were shocked, because we seemed so picture perfect. comment after comment saying how they didn't believe in love anymore.

me either.

i didn't notice to few tears that had dripped down my face. but i don't care honestly. i've cried, cried, and cried more. maybe this would be good for me? i'm a completely changed person now.

i wanted to keep it from getting messy and too public. but i just wanted validation that i wasn't being ridiculous. but i knew people would make fun of me, like i can't keep a man down. so i pushed those thoughts out of my mind quickly. 

i had so many thoughts rushing through my mind to replace those. how do i avoid people until they forget? how do i even move on? will men want me knowing my dating history? who do i talk to about this?

before we dated, gary was an amazing friend to me. and throughout of relationship he became my best friend and we told each other everything. i knew he was my soulmate, so i'm confused on why he didn't feel the same way. now i really had no one i could go to. it's crazy how life can just do a complete 180.

gary was coming over to get more of his stuff. that was another thing. he was so scared of commitment. we didn't even officially live together, we just went from my house to his house and back.

i wanted to keep it cordial and maybe we can stay friends but i can't. i won't be able to stomach him moving on. after he gets his stuff, it's over. i guess it is glad we didn't have a child that would force us to interact.

i heard a knock on my unlocked door and it open. i knew it was him, i just rushed away to my room, to be alone. i didn't want him to see how much it really was getting to me. i knew i couldn't avoid him the whole time because he had stuff in this very room, but it's worth a shot.

i tried to get some of his thing together so he can just get it and go, but i couldn't even look at, much less touch, his things without getting upset all over again.

"y/n?" he softly called out to me. i was underneath my blankets so i just answered yes as best as i could , staying there.

he walked straight in here, past all of the other things he could've gotten.

"do you know where my shoes are?"

"in the closet, right where you left them." i dryly replied. he was just looking for a reason to talk to me , because duh.

it was silent for a few minutes, other than the sound of him rummaging through the clothes and shoes.

"look." he said. i groaned, already knowing what he was going to say and dreading it. "i'm
sorry."

i just stayed silent and shrugged, not knowing what to say. sorry wasn't enough and we had been over that time after time. nothing was going to be enough.

"you're right, you've always been right. i'm m childish and i should have been more serious with you. i love you , i always will. i want to be with you forever i just don't know how to express my feelings. help me, please." he pleaded as tears welled up in his eyes.

"you had so long to learn, come on. don't lie to me. i knew you were going to do that. you're just saying that because that's what i want. we've already announced it, i refuse to look dumb. you've had chance after chance and you
took none of them. you've never said you wanted to marry me but now you see the consequences." i shook my head at him, now fully sitting up. "what we're you so scared of anyway?" my voice was now cracking and i could feel my throat hurt.

"nothing, i love you more than anything. i don't know, i just was so scared it would go wrong or something." he said, unsure himself.

"that's a risk you have to take!" i was now getting angry with my sadness. "it wasn't going wrong during those 6 fucking years i wasted!" i stopped and took deep breaths , calming down since i knew yelling would get us nowhere "that wasn't a worry to me. i thought we would be together forever. i was confident. i just wanted to be a mom. you can take a lot of things from me, but you cannot deprive me of motherhood. i won't bring a child into this cruel world with someone who halfway wants to me with me. but look. congratulations, you were right. it all went wrong." gary knew i wanted to have kids but i don't think he knew the extent. but oh well.

i went on to ask him to get someone else to pick up the rest of his stuff after today, and i would do the same. i went to the guest bedroom to get away since i knew he had nothing in there.

tuh.

"i'm sorry." me too.

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