I wait for him as my body was shaking nervously. Its been 3 minutes and I'm freaking out. What if he breaks up with me? What if? Of course he's going to break up with me!
I don't want to lose him, he's the best thing I have. he's the only thing I have. The door opens and Cameron comes running to me.
"Emma, what's wrong?" he asks as he grabs my hand. "Cameron, I-I" I stutter. "You what?" He asks. "Slept with Shawn." I say quickly.
His face turns into sadness and anger. "what?" He asks calmly. "Cameron I'm so sorry. I was sad about my mother so I wanted to drink to get rid of my pain. Shawn also had a few cups and everything was a blur after that. I woke up the next morning with him by my side. Cameron, I don't want to loose you." I say tearing up.
He stays silent for a minute and looks straight with clenched teeth. oh no, please god, I don't want to loose him, but I deserve it. "Get out." he says looking past me. "what?" I ask. "get out." he says louder. "pack your things and find somewhere else to stay." he says. He gets up and walks upstairs to his room.
"I'm such an idiot." I say to myself. I walk upstairs and pack my things as I look at the place that took me in when I was in need. He took me in when there was nobody else for me, when I was alone because he liked me. Because he cared. He did that for me and in return I slept with his friend, I am such a bitch. I don't deserve him, he's to good for me.
Where am I going to stay? I'll call Shawn. "hello, Shawn?" I ask. "hey, what's up?" He asks. "well, um can I stay at your place for a while?" What if he says no? "yeah sure, I'll be there in five. Explain everything then, okay?" I stay silent for a second. "okay." he hangs up and I continue packing.
I hear a knock on the door and Cameron comes in. "Emma?" He asks. "yeah?" He sits down on the bed. "I'm sorry." wait, what? "For what?" He sighs. "you don't have to leave. I over exaggerated." no, I can't.
"No, Cameron you took me in. you took care of me and loved me when there was nobody there for me. You treated me right, you risked your life to save me when my dad kidnapped me and in return, I slept with Your friend. Cameron. I don't deserve you. I can't live with myself knowing that I did that to you when you did all that for me. I called Shawn, I'm going to be staying at his place." I say with tears forming in my eyes.
"But, I-I love you." he says with tears threatening to come out of his eyes. "I don't deserve you. I'm sorry. thank you for everything you've done for me. I really appreciate it and you are the greatest guy any girl could ask for. One day you'll meet somebody who won't treat you like I did, that'll treat you better."
I hear a honk outside. "That's Shawn." I say awkwardly as I put my suitcase on the ground. "Emma, I forgive you." he says holding my hand. "You shouldn't." I whisper and take my hand away from his. He stands up and kisses me. I don't kiss back and he pulls back. He seems disappointed.
"Bye Cameron." he walks out of the room and slams the door. "I love you." I whisper low enough for him not to hear. I wheel my bag downstairs and see Shawn on his phone in his car.
"Hey." he says as he looks up from his phone. I sit in the passengers seat. "hi." he looks at me with a sad look. I wrap my arms around his neck and burry my head in his neck as I begin to cry. He wraps his arms around my waist tightly.
"It's okay, I'm here for you." he says into my ear. I pull back and he starts driving. In five minutes, we're at his house. We both get out of the car and I wheel my bag to his porch. He opens the door and we both sit on the couch.
"Okay, tell me what happened." I take deep breath and begin. "okay, I told him what happened and he just said get out. He went upstairs and I started to pack. He came into my room and said that he over exaggerated and that I can stay. I told him that he's been so sweet and he was there for me and that I don't deserve him for what I did. he told me he loved me and kissed me. I didn't kiss back and he was disappointed and he left the room and that's when I went outside to you." I say while crying lightly.
"Come here." he says. I lean in and he hugs me tightly. "Look, breakups are never easy. I'm here for you. okay?" I breath heavily. "thank you Shawn." I say and kiss his cheek. I could see him blush which makes me chuckle. "where am I going to be staying?" I ask and put on a fake smile.
"oh, well I only have one room so you could sleep in my room with me if you'd like. If that's uncomfortable, I could take the couch and you could take my bed." He says. "I'll sleep in your room with you." I say. "It's not going to be awkward?" He asks. "no, we had sex so I think we're good." I chuckle as I wipe my tears away.
Shawn stands up and hold his hand out. "come on." he says softly. I grab his hand and he leads me to his bedroom. He hands me a pair of grey sweatpants and a black shirt. "Thank you." he gets out of the room and I change. "come in." I say.
He comes in and lays down on the bed. I lay down next to him, facing the wall. an hour later, I'm still awake. I look over and see Shawn sleeping peacefully. "Shawn." I tap him.
He opens his eyes slightly and smiles. "hi." I smile. "how you doing?" He whispers. "I've been better." "Why'd you wake me up?" He chuckles. "I can't sleep, I can't stop thinking about it." I say. "want to think about something else?" "Why?" "I have something, would it help?" "Anything would help, I just want a happy thought."
he gets on top of me and out of nowhere. He puts my arms over my head. Our face are inches away. He leans in until we are centimeters apart. My heart starts pumping faster and faster. He cups my cheek and begins leaning in more. He kisses my forehead and smiles at me.
"Think about that." he says and rolls off of me. I stay there in total shock, wow what a tease. I turn back to the wall and think. um.. ok, what was.. did I want him to uh.. maybe? I don't know. okay.. what just.. ok.....
I feel his arms wrap around my waist and his cheek lay on mine. I smile as I feel butterflies in my stomach. I put my arms over his and I could feel him smile. I have to admit, Shawn is pretty cute. We both fall slowly into a dark sleep.
