Ashamed

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Can't even look myself

On the mirror,

Without absences of stinging pain

Running slowly-deeply in every vein

Of my rock-like body.


I changed, and

I hate this change.


I am not proud, and

I am not happy.


Guilty.


I can't able myself

To feel what should be felt

To this eventful, yet

Confusingly unknown

To acknowledge.


I'm sinking.


Should I leave this body?

Could I still find the lost me?


Already.


Currently gasping

Below the coldest-deepest ocean

Of my self-made misery.


- Gal

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