Best Friends Forever {PAUSED}

Chapter 14 - Opposite of Sacrifice

Chapter 14 - Opposite of Sacrifice

I stroke his face slowly as he contemplates. His face is so thoughtful and he really looks like he's about to accept my offer. I hope he does because I don't like how he cares about her feelings.

He suddenly slumps his head against my shoulder and I hear him mumble something against my neck that I didn't quite catch. It did make me shiver though.

I lift his head up and look him in his eyes. "What did you say?" It kind of sounded like no, but that can't be.

He sighs heavily and somewhat regretfully. "I said... no. I just- just- just can't do what you're asking of me, ok?" He says and rubs his hand through his hair roughly.

My eyes blow open and I fling myself away from him in surprise and put my hand over my heart. "Really?" I whisper in denial of his choice.

He sighs again and shamefully nods his head.

I sputter. "Wh-wh-wh-why? Do you just care about her more than me so you can't let her go?"

He shakes his head at me and glares into my eyes. "Don't be ridiculous." he growls.

I glare right back at him. "It's not that ridiculous considering what you put me through. You let her put her hands in places I haven't even put my hands just to please her and not lose her. Now you are getting friend zoned for her... talking about ridiculous." I tell him this angrily. I'm so sick of being angry.

He sighs and runs his hands over his face and through his hair roughly. "You don't understand. She's one of my closest friends. She's nice to me and she's probably the only one that is nice to me besides you. All the guys in our school just want to be my friend to get to you. She's the only friend I have besides you. I don't want to lose her. She's done a lot for me." He tries to explain this situation, but I'm not interested in listening right now. Not anymore. The thought of him and her just makes me want to shut down. I just can't stop picturing them together. They look better together...

A tear streams down my face as I see them make love to each other. I blink it away. I know it's irrational to only have me as a friend and I won't even expect that from him. I could just let him go, but to be honest I can't let him go. All of a sudden I feel a hesitant touch and I jump away from the touch. I look up to see Jake looking at me hesitantly.

"Are you alright?" He asks me.

I start laughing historically to the point of tears. I know Jake is staring at me like I'm a loon right now, but I can't help it. That was a humorous question. Am I alright? Hahaha. Man, that's a good one. When I'm done, I wipe away the tears, smiling. I look at Jake and I was right. He definitely thinks he needs to lock me up... like pronto.

I sigh a happy sigh even though I'm no where near happy. I'm still over here cheesing. "Yea, I'm better than fine. I'm happy. You stay loyal to your friend. Your only friend. I'll stay loyal to my only friend... myself."

His eyes blow open at my words and he goes pale once again, but this time it is worse and he looks like he has seen a ghost. "But you said..."

I smile wider. I swear I'm not crazy... yet anyway. "Things change. People lie." I squint at him on my last words.

Tears come out of HIS eyes. HA. "Why are you doing this? What did I do?" He screams at me.

I laugh again. A little chuckle, that's it. I shrug at him. "Because I want to. Maybe I want to make new friends. Now, you are a stranger to me. Give me my key and get out." I cock my head to the side, smile, and stick my hand out.

He shakes his head. "I don't have the-"

"Don't you dare lie to me again." I warn him.

He sighs. "Alright..." he shoves his hands into his pockets and digs for his keys. When he gets his keys out, he chucks them at the wall right next to my head and I flinch. "YOU WERE RIGHT, MASIAH! YOU WERE FUCKING RIGHT! WE DON'T WORK TOGETHER AS A COUPLE!" He screamed at me then swiveled out and stomped his way out of my house.

I'm not going to lie, that hurt like hell. My little fake happy mood was a front so I didn't cry in front of him. Now that he's gone, that front crumbles and the tears pour. Cry me a river, as they say, and that's surely what I did.

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When I wake up in the morning, everything comes tumbling back to me. I know I over reacted. I know that I shouldn't have let my jealousy get the best of me. I know this. I would have never been fine with them beings friends though. I would never like to see them make physical contact. I would never want them to hang out. I would never be nice to her in order for us to be some type of happy threesome. Our friendship would've ended anyway due to my lack of effort in not being jealous, so I just got it over with. Anyway, I have to get to school so I quickly get ready and head out the door. When I get outside, Jake came out at the same time. We looked at each other for a little bit, realizing that probably both of us want to say sorry.

I'm the one to look away and I quickly get in my car. When I arrive in the school, everyone is whispering like always. There's always some type of drama thing going around. Gosh, today is not going to be fun considering Jake is in all of my classes and we sit next to each other in every single one of them.
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Busy, busy bee. I will upload when I can.

XoXo Mrs. Mahone.

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