𝙨𝙤𝙗𝙚𝙧. •Tom Kaulitz•

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"i cant believe you have to go Ami." Bills eyes start tearing up. I hate to see him like this, the only thing he's every cried about was when his brother, Tom, would steal his food which i always giggled at.

"I'm sorry Bill, daddy says i need to move away." I chocked out.

The boys always called me Ami it's short for Amelia. I always loved it, i find it cute.

I'm going to miss Bill, Tom too. He sometimes hung out with us but i still am close to him like i am with Bill.

"I should've spent more time with you. Here take these, ones from me and ones from Bill." Tom sniffs and hands me two bracelets, ones black and ones white and they both have the infinity charm on it. "Black one is from Bill and the white one is from me" he points out.

"Amelka trzeba iść (Amelia we gotta go)" My dad says.

Tom helps me put them on and i smile, i hug them and we all say goodbye. "i love you guys i know we will see each other again."

We were 10 in this moment. I had to move away to England because of my mum. We could've went to Poland, my home country, but that's too close. She wasn't really the best mother you could ask for.

She claims because she gave birth to me she can just do whatever she wants, that's not the case. My Father finally realised all the horrible things she's done.

The drug abuse. Alcohol abuse. I'm never going to be like her when i'm older.

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"Pass me it." I stick my hand out to my friend Anni, short for Annika. She passes me the joint and i inhale deeply, I keep it in my lungs for a couple of seconds and exhale.

I moved back to Germany 6 years after we found out my Mother passed away because her lungs collapsed. Oh well. I do love my mum but it was getting too much for younger me to handle.

"i really like your bracelets" she looked at them with wide eyes, she's high. Me too so it's fine.

"Thank you very much" I gave her a childish smile, i take more puffs out of the joint and pass it back to her.

I love this feeling. The feeling of weed inside my body.

Most people would laugh and say i'm being ridiculous, "drugs isn't good for you" ok? idk what you want me to say back to that.

Anni finishes the rest of the joint and throws the end of it away somewhere on the grass. The music blasting in my ears through my airpods, Anni hearing the same thing since she has the other side of it.

I lay down on the grass, "you excited for school tomorrow?"

"To be fair i've been going there for ages, this is your first day, since you got kicked out the last one." She gave me a look.

"Not my fault that school was actually getting on my nerves." i reply back. I got kicked out because of my poor behaviour to teachers, maybe if they stopped yelling at me i wouldnt shout back and do more. I've only been back in Germany for 8 months.

"I beg you don't get kicked out of this one, i really need you there" She lays down beside me and turns her head to look at me.

I look back at her and smile, "we'll see what happens."

Then my dad rings me. "ami where are you kochanie?"

"i'm at the park."

"Please come home"

i check the time and see it's half 11 at night. "okay i'm coming"

My dad doesn't know. He doesnt know i smoke, do drugs, drink. I cant let him find out, if he does he will actually get so mad and i can't do that to him. Especially because of my mother.

"Anni i gotta go walk me home?" I grab the bottles of water that we took with us.

"Ofcourse" We both get up of the ground and start walking towards my house, it's about a 15 minute walk and we drink two whole bottles by the time i'm home.

"Bye Anni, i love you lots see you tomorrow" I hug my best friend goodbye and walk in the house.

"what's up with you?"

"nothing?" i stare blankly at my dad. Scared he's going to figure it out.

"why do you look like that?

"like what?" Why does he have so many questions?

"Like you've been-"

"i'm very tired i'm going to sleep." I rush upstairs to my room not letting him finish because then i wouldn't be able to explain myself.

I take all my jewellery off and finally brush my hair after an eventful day today. Obviously going into the shower then straight to bed. I'm knackered.

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