With broken hands ~Jaskier and Geralt~

You are perfect

Self harm, homofobia, cursing.

Also in my story Jaskier has not met any of the witchers :)

~A week later~

We finaly arrived at Kaer Morhen. It took very long because we has some issues on the way like kikimora and stuff but now we are finaly here.

'Geralt I am scared. What if they hate me?'

'They won't. I love you so they will have to love you.' He lifts me of Roach.

'You love me?' my eyes grow bigger. He has never said that to anyone.

'I.... Yes I do actualy. Sorry if it is weird to say.' I smile.

'No. I love you too Wolfie.'

'Another nickname.' Geralt rolls his eyes.

'Yes now let's get going.' We walk inside and I see a group of very big man.

'You okay?' I look at Geralt and take a deep breath. He takes my hand and he walks me to everybody.

'GERALT. FINALY. It took you ages mate.' A witcher with red hair walks up to Geralt and hugs him. I let go of his hand and step back. The rest of the witchers also follows. 

'And who is this fag?' The witcher with red hair now looks at me.

'Lambert. Come on. This is Jaskier. He is my....... Bard. Yeah my bard.' I look at Geralt and feel betrayed.

'I was scared. I mean you would never date a boy, I know that and it is just wrong. Anyway what the fuck is this bag of bones doing here?'

'Yeah he started following me a few years ago and I decided to take him with me.' Another witcher comes up to me. He is dark skined.

'Is it a he or a she. He acts so girlish and the way he dresses. It is pathetic.' I am to scared to say anything back. I normaly do but they are brothers of Geralt and I don't want to make an even more bad impression. The last witcher I see comes up.

'Eskel my boyy.' Geralt hugs him and he hugs him back and gives him a kiss on the cheek.

'Hello biggie. Oh so this is the famous bard. He is...... Something.'

'Yeah I know.' I look at Geralt. I feel betrayed. He told me he loved me just seconds ago and now this.

'Is this homo staying with you or in a differant room?'

'We'll find something Lambert. Now where is dad?' Geralt walks away with the boys and I am just left behind. 

I don't know were I am going but I start walking and some how end up in a room. Tears are streaming down my face and I can't even breath anymore. I look around the room and see a mirror. I look into it. I look awful and ugly. No wonder Geralt did this. He probably hates me but didn't want to tell me. I knew it. How can someone as perfect as him like me. I slam my hand into the mirror and it breaks. I pick up one of the shards and hold it in my hand. My hand is shaking. I am trying not to do it. I used to and the scars finaly faded for the most part. Geralt didn't see them at least. I sit down on the bed and lay the shard next to me. I stand up to close the door again and sit down on the bed.

One cut won't hurt right?

My head is a blur. My arm is now bleeding alot and there are six maybe seven cuts but the pain won't go away. I lay on my back and tears are streaming down my face and the blood is dripping on the sheets. I need some bandages. I stand up and rip a part of my undershirt. I bind it around my wrist and put my doublet over it. I walk around until I find the medical room. I take some bandages and walk back to the room. I sit back on the bed and start to bind up my wrist. The pain is still there. Not only on my arm but also in my heart. I have some bandages left.

I tried to stop it. I really did but I just can't. I can't stop now.

A/N: I think there will be more that 5 extra parts and next part wil also have sexual assault in it and we will go back to Jaskier his past. He will try to commit suicide. Please be aware of that and if you ever wanted to kill yourself please talk to someone or call 0800-113 or 0800 689 5652 for help.