Prisoners in love

CHAPTER 5

It has been about two months since our wedding. Nothing has changed between us, we hardly ever saw each other, only a few times at the table. Mostly I was always alone. In these days he was away for a job and Dania told me this. He had married me yes but he didn't give a damn about me, I don't know where that love at first sight is. In recent months I have asked myself this question of where he could have seen me. When I came to Pakistan with my family, I hardly ever left the house. How much better it was if I didn't come to Pakistan and stayed in Canada. If that had been the case now I would have been with my family, with my friends, I would have been where I grew up. But I consoled myself by saying that everything happened for a reason, even if in my case I don't see any valid reason. I've had a conversation with mom several times in recent months, I was happy to hear her voice, I was happy that she was there. If only Saif let me go too, I would have flown away, but then it dawns on me that my papers were all from my parents and i back to real life. Now all this was just a dream for me.

Surely there was another reason behind this marriage, and Saif used the excuse of love at first sight, there was something that was being hidden from me. In this house, from the guardians to the servants, they were all very closed, as soon as you ask them something they only answer with a nod. Who knows why Saif kept them under such pressure, now that I was also used to everything, can't he just send them home. In Canada I have never seen so much protection in a house and then I didn't understand what was to hide here. The only thing I knew about Saif's work was that he had land that he had to look and then he also had an office. He didn't tell me about all this, it was always Dania who gave me this information. He was the only one, I always wondered where his parents were. And then the uncle, who was he, why did this family have so many secrets, why they couldn't be a normal family. Being a rich son, that got everything from the beginning many times even without asking he was very spoiled and that's why he do nikha in that way. If he had been the son of good parents, who had taught him to respect women, he would never have done this. Even if I didn't talk to him much, but about one thing I'm sure, he shows himself to be strong and courageous from the outside, from the inside he is a very normal boy who could need some affection.

This affection he would never have from me, he deserves only hurt, I have no words to describe how much I hate Saif. To round off the day, Saif's cousin Huma visited me in the evening. It was the first time we saw each other. She saw me with a surprised look and said "are you Saif's wife?". Of course it's me, who else do you see here, "I was wondering because as far as I know Saif,he doesn't have that choice" she said. But take a good look at me, I'm Saif's wife, his only wife, the wife he would do anything for. " Well I wouldn't say everything!" Huma added. Mrs. Huma, it would be better for you to stay away from my husband because he is not interested in you at all and therefore leaves other men's in peace .
"You! Don't be so happy about yourself," she was finishing her sentence when I interrupted her. My name is Eshaal, Eshaal Saif, I have a name! "Yes Eshaal, don't be so happy, he just married you to fulfill his scope but in truth he loves me" said Huma. I really don't think Huma, he loves me and only me, he knows nothing about you. "I'm not here to talk to you, I came to see Saif" and I saw her enter in the rooms and I replied; Saif is not at home, and then for good manners, you don't enter in married rooms like this.

I saw her get furious when I replied to her so confidently and she walked away saying "this house is more mine than yours, I will come back and take Saif away". After this whole scene with Huma I came to my room and started thinking what scope Saif had, there was a reason behind this marriage, indeed a scope! Why I don't know and Huma knows it, why that girl has to intervene in our lives. Saif was a guy with purpose, how he could love me, how he could be faithful. I want explanations and tomorrow when he comes back I want to know every detail of the why of this nikah.