Prisoners in love

Truth; Chapter 39

SAIF
I was finishing the sentence when I saw Eshaal pass out and I immediately approached her to prevent her from falling. Eshaal, Eshaal! I said many times but she didn't answer. I picked her up and walked out of the room, on the way to the car I found Amma bi who became worried to see Eshaal in that condition. "What happened to Ms. Eshaal?" she said in panic, Amma bi, she fainted i replied urgently when i was going out to get to the car. The hospital wasn't very far from our house but today that I had Eshaal in my arms in that condition it felt like I lived thousands of kilometers away, she had turned pale and was starting to sweat I wanted to get to the hospital as fast as possible because I can't see her in this conditions.
I was in the waiting room, waiting for some response from the doctors who didn't seem very satisfied.

I kept thinking about what I said to her, it was my fault even if she insisted I could say nothing and she wouldn't feel sick, I was struggling with my own thoughts when I heard the doctor's voice. "Now his wife is fine, she just had a drop in blood sugar and her blood pressure dropped a lot, but everything is under control now, she'll wake up soon and then he'll be able to see her", but even if she's not awake, I can go and see her, "However, it is important that you does not give her disappointed news because she has also taken the stress of something. You can go home tomorrow morning". With this the doctor left, I immediately went into the room to see her, she had the drip that was about to end and I hope she would wake up later. I sat on the couch waiting for her to wake up.

I love her so much so why did I tell her all that, I didn't have to say anything thinking about his health but I got carried away by her words, I was sorry for everything I did, for how i treat her at the beginning, forced her to do what she didn't want to in short, I am the culprit of her condition. We were in our room, she was resting in bed, we had just returned from the hospital and she was also quite well. Even though neither of us were speaking, our eyes fixed on one another's faces said it all. I got up to approach her and relax her but she preferred not to let me get close to her and not to talk about her so I decided to leave her alone for a bit.

ESHAAL
I couldn't believe what I heard yesterday, I can't believe dad did anything like that it was just Saif who was lying and trying to justify himself. I called mom to confirm something even though knowing my parents I'm sure she wouldn't have told me anything. Mom, I want to ask something very important so I want you to answer me sincerely, "Tell me everything, are you okay right?", Mom before all this happened in my life, before I was kidnapped Saif had sent the marriage proposal?, "Why this strange question today?", because I want to know mom give me an answer, tell me that he didn't come and tell me that dad didn't want to marry me to his friend's son tell me that there is no challenge, tell me that no one talked about winning me.

"Eshaal, today it seems to me that you are not very well", mom but why don't you answer what I asked you why don't you tell me that all that is not true, tell me that dad never said these words, " Eshaal", Eshaal what mom! What Eshaal! tell me if dad ever said this to Saif and tell me if saif came for the proposa. "Take it easy", mom you don't understand right now my head is exploding, you don't know how bad I did and said to Saif at the beginning of our relationship just because he had married me. Now you're telling me to take it easy. Your not answering is giving me confirmation, why don't you talk, why don't you answer mom why don't you tell me that all this is not true.

Tell me a simple no, it's not difficult. "Yes Eshaal everything you know is true", so you are telling me that Saif had come, he had wished that everything that happened could have been avoided, "Yes Eshaal", mom but you know that mess happened between papa and saif that I don't knew nothing could be avoided and right now I couldn't be in so much pain, I can't face Saif anymore, you know that right? Yet if you knew everything then why didn't you like Saif why did you always tell me to leave him maybe because you knew it was your fault. "Eshaal but I can also explain things properly" there is something else to add I think that here is already too much and with this I turned off the call. I was ashamed of my behavior, Saif was not at fault yet I thought he was the problem but he wasn't. I feel guilty for all the times I offended him, hurt him, all the times I spoke back to him, hated him and blamed him for something he didn't do. But he always saved me, protected me and tried not to make me feel alone. I was so furious that I threw my phone off the bed, I wanted to break everything in front of me but before I could do anything Saif arrived with lunch. He put down the lunch and ran towards me and sat up in bed in front of me I was so desperate that I couldn't resist and fall into his arms to calm down.

I stayed like this for a long time, inside me there was a continuous struggle between what was good for me, what I suffered and what happened and above all I continue to feel guilty about how I behaved with Saif. Saif forgive me, I apologize so much, "But for what", he asked leaving me from the hug, for all the times I blamed or hurt you and you too know how many things I could have avoided which I did, however." Don't worry you didn't do anything wrong, just think that you weren't aware of anything and therefore you gave your reactions. But I didn't want you to ruin your relationship with your parents, it is not and will never be my intent ", Yes all of this is fine but you're not angry with me are you?,

"Well to tell the truth I am", what like, no sorry I didn't mean to hurt you, I said immediately changing my facial expression, with my heart pounding and with a trembling voice. "In your opinion I can never be angry with you, don't worry about nothing and above all don't apologize. I'm glad that now officially we have nothing more to hide from each other", thank you for all the times you defended me and you made me feel good, calm and protected. "Now enough to be emotional, lunch time, I told Amma bi to prepare something light so that you can eat it and feel good," he said standing up to take the lunch he had put down, Saif but I'm not hungry and I don't want, "I don't want excuses, you'll understand how I felt when you forced me to eat when I was sick. Now it's my turn to take care of you".