It was night and me and Tom were once again on the balcony talking about anything that came across our minds.
«ok so I've been thinking about something» Tom turned to face me.
«what's up?»
«how come you already dated someone but never had your first kiss»
«I don't really know. I think it was because a part of me still thought it was wrong to like another girl, you feel me?» I explained, a wave of sadness hitting me.
«I understand» he nodded.He didn't tease me, no smug remark, only an understanding nod.
He already finished smoking. He always waited for me, I thought it was cute but unnecessary. Lately he had been acting weird; he held my hand or my wrist when it wasn't needed, he asked for cuddles or attention without having sex, he even started hugging me even when the others were around.
After the last puff I threw the cig out of the balcony. «I'll go sleep now, good night» I mumbled as I yawned.
«good night y/n» He said, his voice low, almost a whisper.
I walked into my room but when I saw a figure on my bed I jumped back. «what's up y/n» Bill greets me
«what are you doing here?» I asked, still startled.
«just wanted to talk, you know some chitchat time» he gesticulated a little with his typical bright smile.
«okay..? what do you wanna talk about?» I sat on the bed right next to him.
«Do you like my brother?» I choked on my saliva, he didn't even sugarcoat it.
«oh uhm.. of course not.» I stammered, way too fast.
«yeah, sure.» he gave me a side eye.
«what? it's true»
«you had a crush on him before» He stated.
«yeah but it was years ago»
«but you still like him now» Bill insisted, his eyebrows wiggled.
«No. Like yeah he is handsome and all but I don't think i like him» I said, but the redness on my face betrayed me.
«yet»he added.
I rolled my eyes and laid on the bed.
«do you like anyone?» I asked him. He kept quiet, his lips pressed in a line. I raised my head and smiled «you do like someone!» I squealed in excitement.
«Who is it!? » I jumped to him and shook his arm
«no one..» his gaze avoiding mine.
«what do you mean no one? tell me about her, do I know her? is she pretty? is she another famous artist?» I questioned him all in one breath.
«yeah.. right. her»
silence.
«oh so it's a boyy, you could have just told me. Ok so how is he like?»
He doesn't answer and I look at him clueless, still waiting for an answer. After looking at his surprised face, I finally i realise.
«aren't you weirded out? about me liking dudes» he said as he faced anywhere but me.
«why would I?» I ask as I shrug my shoulders.
«It feels wrong» I hum.
«I felt this way too, you know?»
He looks at me, his face more shocked than before «really? you like girls?»
«yeah! It took me a while to accept myself but I was alone. I will help you being yourself, I will always be by your side. Ok?» I see his face lighting up. He smiles and I smile back. Bill hugs me and hug him too.
«Thank you so much y/n!»
«no problem, I'm glad it helped you»
He stood up and stretched his arms.«I'mma go to sleep now. Goodnight!»
«sleep well!» I waved to him
I looked at the clock on the night stand. 00:01 am
I sigh and laid on my bed. I think about nothing and nothing come to my mind. I try to sleep but I can't. Guess i'll do nothing till I fall asleep. Suddenly i hear my phone ringing. It's an unknown number. I shrug and just pick up
«y/n..» A familiar voice says
«come back» shit.
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cigarettes out the window
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