cigarettes out the window

15

It's now evening and we almost finished all our movie list, so we started watching random stuff, like twilight. We've been laughing for like an hour and shit is getting funnier by second, Eva is even chocking on her saliva.

«Ok people, it's my smoke break.» I pause the movie and head outside but when i turn around I see the others following.
«we're smoking two, expect gustav, he didn't want to be left out»

I shrug and let them come. Not that i had a choice. We alla talk our pack of cigs and look at the skyline of the city. I feel the wind filling my nostrils and go through my hair. While we were all distracted gustav grabbed his camera and before he could take the pic I face him. He smile at me.

«you came out amazing» he says as he showed me the picture. The others are all looking elsewhere and I was looking directly at the camera. We all look a mess but its better this way because it's shows who we really are. But something is missing, and I know exactly what.

«looks cute. let's take another one with you in it» he blushes
«nah I'm not used to it»
«oh come on, let's do it!» I grab his camera, put it on the table, set the timer and just come back where I was before.
after waiting for the flash we look at the pic.
«now it's much more then cute!»
It's just like before but it's complete.

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It's finally diner time. we firstly wanted to eat the leftovers of before but there was nothing, just some pizza crusts and soy sauce so we decided to ditch diner and talk.

«why can't you just date» ok, SHY THIS TOPIC?!
«because I don't like him» I answer
«you gotta be fucking for real!» Eva screams
«I am!» I scream back
«well even Tom admits that he feels something for you!» she states
«if he did he would have told me»
«I was going to eventually but Eva already said it. And how do you even know?»
«Bill.»
«the fuck? Bill!»
«ok can we go back to Tom liking my cousin?» Georg interrupts them
«thank you georg. So you deadass feel something for me?»
«mhm yeah I guess»
we stay silent. Nobody says anything. I don't even know what to feel, do and say. I'm confused.

«so what about you? do you like me?» Tom asks. I think about it and say the only thing that came up to my mind
«I don't know»
«oh. I understand»
«I'm sorry. It's just.. shit, I really don't know. I like being with you and I think your presence is comforting, but you as a person. I don't know.» I try to explain.
«no it's fine! I get it sweetie. Take your time if you need it» He kisses my hand that he was caressing during the whole conversation.

The rest look at us probably not knowing what to do.
«ok so.. would you guys rather jump off a vulcano or jump into acid?» Bill asks randomly