Everything's gonna be alright (English)✅

Chapter 4

I go up to the meadow to the railing again, look down one last time. I see again how the boy looks at me one last time, he has a cap on, medium-sized, white, blue eyes, gray, wide pants, a hooded sweater with a black vest, he smiles at me I smile back... Then I walk away from the railings and sat down on a bench that stands on the meadow. It's almost half past noon, but it's still relatively cold...

I take out the peanut caramel bar from my jacket pocket and take off the foil. I put it in the trash can and eat my "breakfast", because I probably won't get anything better...

A few pigeons pick up the peanut crumbs that fell out of the foil... I put my headphones back on and slowly go back...

"At home" I take off my jacket and take off my shoes. These end up in my room directly in the next best corner. I rummage in one of the boxes and finally pull out my diary with a pen. I decide to write down the last and the next few days like this...as a reminder...especially as a reminder of the boy..." Rabbit"... Somehow he doesn't really get out of my head, well, not specifically him, but rather the smile and the eyes...so actually his look. So, so different, as if this look knew exactly who it was about...

Meanwhile it's already 1 p.m.... well, I still haven't seen Mom and Dad... so carefully I sneak to her room and open the door as carefully as possible. I look through the small door gap and, wait what?! Where are they?! I don't hear any voices, nor did I notice that they got up...

So I go quietly down the stairs and look in the kitchen first, hmm, they are not there... not in all other rooms either. Then I see a note at the door:

Tomorrow Josie, are gone until tonight, probably 8 p.m., see you later, you can order food... M&P

That should be called Mom and Dad, proves once again how much they love me... Well, somehow quite relaxed, but what am I supposed to do today? I don't want to leave the house, otherwise there is no one there, I mean, this area, Bacher all things are still gone... no, then I would be officially dead, Dad would freak out, only if he knew that I didn't lock the house, would already bring him to 180...

So I go back up to my room and start unpacking my one box and putting its contents in my closet. For the most part, these are only clothes, but I have 3 more boxes... I'm already getting an outfit for tomorrow. A blue jeans, a white hooded sweater and my black winter jacket. Since I only have a few shoes, I can probably only wear them tomorrow...

Finally, I lie down on the luxurious mattress again and get my cell phone. Then I open YouTube and first pull in a few videos of my favorite YouTubers. Actually, I don't really do much the rest of the day, except to order food... I have even unpacked all my boxes. I also had to set up a cupboard and a shelf, that's why I already did it out of boredom...then Dad can't say that I didn't do anything...

In the evening I briefly go to our porch again and sit down on its stairs. I decided to call Mara again, it may sound hard, but I want to leave my old life behind me, I don't tell her that way, but I'm trying to break off contact with her more and more, so maybe just don't write to her anymore...but to hurt her somehow wouldn't be fair either...