Fake it to Make it

Chapter 5

You're nothing but a lying bitch.. You can go now...
Tears are falling down my cheeks as these hurtful words keep repeating in my head. How could I have been so stupid? Why did I think we could actually have a relationship?
"Its okay my dear, I'm here now." Tessa says as she pats my back.
"It just hh-urts so much." I stutter, unable to speak straight.
"I know it does. It'll all get better soon hun. I promise."
I look up to Tessa, "I love you Tess."
"I love you too Lilly. We will get through this. I'm not leaving your side until you feel better."
Then ironically, Tessa gets up and goes into the kitchen, returning with 2 tubs of ice cream. She looks at me, "Cookie dough or Moose tracks?"
"Uhh cookie dough." I grab the tub of ice cream and the spoon from her hand. If anything could comfort me right now, I guess it would be ice cream.
. . .
I return home from Tessa's house at nearly 10 pm, where I see my mom sitting on the couch waiting for me.
"Would you mind explaining to me why I was just talking to Tessa's mom on Facebook and she said you were not at her house earlier?"
"Well me and Tessa went to the beach, So we weren't there."

"Her mother said Tessa was out with boyfriend earlier, so don't you lie to me. Lilly Reese you tell me the truth this instant!" My mom slightly raises her voice.

"Okay, okay mom."-"I went to go meet a boy, but turns out that didn't go how I thought it would. You won't have to worry about me doing that again."
I knew my mom was about to go crazy..
"A BOY?? Why wouldn't you just tell me you wanted to hang out with a boy???"

"Well, I had never met this boy before so I had to drive to Atlanta to see him. I knew you'd never allow it so I just told you I was going to Tessa's, I'm really sorry mom."

"You are 16 years old Lilly! You cannot just be driving hours to see a boy you've never met! He could've been a pedophile for all you knew!"

I look at my mom, tears in my eyes because all this talk about going to meet him brings the memories back. I try to hold the tears back.
"Oh god no, honey please tell me he wasn't a pedophile?!"

"No mom, he wasn't. Just not what I was expecting that's all."
I didn't want to tell my mom about my fake profile, or what was my fake profile, because I knew she wouldn't understand and I'd be grounded for life.

Just as I was almost asleep, my phone lights up and the notification tone goes off. Every time I hear the tone I feel guilt and sadness for wanting it to be Zach. I unplug then snatch my phone off the nightstand and open my text messages only to see its Tessa texting me.
From: Tessa
Goodnight babes. Don't let this get to you too much, He's not worth it. Trust me. Love you Lilly.
I hit reply and start typing back.
To: Tessa
I'm trying, I love you too. Goodnight. Thank you so much for earlier.

I place my phone on my nightstand facing down and plug it back in. I roll over into the warmth of my blankets and cuddle my pillow. This is going to be a long night of tossing, turning and contemplating everything in my head, I can feel it.

Hey guys! I'm back with the shortest update ever! That's okay though because the next few chapters will be back to normal I promise! Much love for all of you.
~Meagan