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You disrupted my life just to play a game with my emotions. I was content with being miserable, I had accepted it as the ugly truth it was. You led me to believe that you wanted the same as I did. Now I have to live with the mistake I have made and that was you. A game... I hope you had fun but apparently you got bored. I ended the torment you were causing, it ended on my terms. I was not gonna give you the satisfaction of playing with my mentality any longer. I hope you are happy, I really do. Just know I think of you often with disgust of how stupid I was to think you would ever deserve someone like me. And I thank you for adding another traumatic situation for me to have to heal from. Thank you for never being the person you led me to believe you were. Thank you for making me stronger! You played the game so well I didn't see it coming. You manipulated and used me for your satisfaction. You'd be happy to know that when you tried to break an already broken person, it only made me that much stronger. You opened my eyes up to the possibility that I might be a problem too. That I might have codependency traits. That I too might be playing a game. A game... the same actions and reactions over and over. Make one small move and expect to go in the right direction. Make the slightest change to strategy that it might change the outcome. The outcome was never gonna change. The result will remain the same. That's why I ended the game. My decision to be truly happy was the hardest decision I ever made. I had to give up that dream for you that I had. Every day I constantly remind myself that life is not a game. Living life is about being happy and healthy. Living life is about loving people and helping to the best of yours and their abilities.  Loving life is about accepting that you have to love some people from afar. Loving life is about having hard days but knowing that it will be easier. Loving life is about growth and knowing that you do the best with what situations you are given. I played the game, now I'm winning.✌🏼✌🏼✌🏼

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