First (James Yammouni)

Chapter twelve

And just like that, his lips were on mine.

My eyes opened wide, and I was struck dumb for a moments while his lips were pressed against mine firmly. Something in my body reacted, and in a moment my eyes closed and I was kissing him back. His hands found my hips and pulled my body closer to his while my hands wrapped around his neck.

Inside my head I was screaming. At him, at myself, telling us to stop and that this was wrong, this was my first kiss and I was sharing it with my step brother, but I ignored it and kept kissing him back anyways.

He pushed me back until I was between him and a counter. He grabbed my hips and lifted me up so that I was now sitting on the counter with my legs wrapped around his waist. His hands ran up and down my back and I arched into him. He pulled away from the kiss, biting my bottom lip in his mouth lightly. He looked up at me and I felt my face heat up. He pushed my hair away from my face and placed little kisses along my neck.

"You have no idea how bad I've wanted to do that" he said, sucking on a spot beneath my ear.

"We shouldn't be doing this" I said, the realization setting in "it's wrong, it-"

"Shh" he said, pressing his lips against mine gently.

"James-"

He kissed me once again, but this time it was deep and slow. He pulled away and looked at me for a moment while I sat there and tried to collect my frantic thoughts.

"We have to stop" I whispered against his lips.

"There's no way" James said "now I've tasted you, and I don't think I can stop it"

"You're my step brother" I said, moving my head to the side to give him more access as he kept peppering kisses along my neck.

"Barely" he said.

"But still" I said, trying to think of an argument but failing. I didn't know if I could keep it up much longer with the way his lips felt against my skin.

His hand crept up my stomach and grabbed my breast while the other was wrapped around my back pulling me closer to him.

"Tell me to stop" he said, nipping at my collarbone "and I will"

I opened my mouth to speak but his ringtone interrupted me. He groaned and pulled the phone out of his pocket, then put it to his ear while his lips were still against mine.

"Hello?" He asked in an irritated tone.

I gently kissed his lips again, but his body went rigid against me.

"What do you mean? What happened" he shouted into the phone angrily. His tone was enough to make me jump back, but he didn't take notice to me.

"Fuck. I'm on my way" he said before hanging up.

"What's wrong?" I asked, concerned and scared at how upset he was.

"Nothing" he said. His body was shaking and his face was pale "I have to go"

"Go where? What happened?" I asked. He turned away and left me sitting on the counter. I hopped off and tried to follow him as he quickly strode for the door.

"It's not any of your business" he said, yanking the door open and storming to his car.

I stopped then. His words were like a slap to the face, and I just stood there while he started his car and pulled out of the parking lot in a rush. Now that I was alone the realization of what we had done had settled in, and I touched my lips in disbelief. I had just had my first kiss, and it was my step brother. Now a panic set in, and I realized that I would have to face him once again, knowing what we had just done.

He kissed me, then he yelled at me. He was so nice today, I could see the hurt in his eyes earlier as he opened up about his past and his family, and something about him told me that he wasn't the type of person who was open with other people often.

Who had called him, and what happened to make him so frantic? I couldn't help but wonder what was going on, and the fact that I had no clue bothered me to no ends.

I picked up a rag and spray bottle and sprayed the countertops. I needed something to get my mind off of James and the events of today but I couldn't help but sit there and let my thoughts cloud me.

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I'm sososo sorry that this is really short, but how about I give yo something else to make up for it ;)

Ok, so you know how I was asking you guys if you would read another book of mine if I published it? Well, I did!

It's not long, it's only 5 chapters. It's a one shot book titled "sexual tension" and each chapter is a one shot for each Janoskian boy. I started writing it early April but I didn't want to publish any chapters because I'm shit with updating (note: I wrote 3 1/2 chapters in one night, then it took me 2 months to finish the last 1 1/2 chapter, do you see my problem?) and also, I wanted to save it for a suprise or a special occasion.

It's been almost 1 year since I first published this thing, and I know I'm shot with updates but it's still got over 1K reads and I'm super excited about that (never expected more that 100 tbh)

Also, my school gets out in less than 2 weeks so I'll have plenty of time to update and wrote over the summer (unless I get a job, then yall screwed :)

But yeah. If you'd like go and give "sexual tension" a read and comment your opinions (be honest, I can take it)

Thank you & fair winds

-Stevie