You Are Home [Hwang2Shin]

CH. 1

When the social worker's car pulls to a stop outside of a small blue house, Yuna's heart picks up a little bit.

She runs her hand over her hair, still short and bristly from the buzz cut her last foster father gave her when he wrongly thought she caught lice from someone at school. The hand-me-down dress she's wearing is dingy and stiff, and no matter how much she tugs on it the tag scratches the back of her neck.

The social worker opens the car door and Yuna climbs out, hauling the backpack filled with her meager belongings along with her. They're halfway up the front walkway when the front door opens and a brunette woman steps onto the front porch.

She's pretty and has a bright, nervous smile, but Yuna knows better than to get her hopes up.

The walkie-talkie that she's clutched in her hands since she left the group home is getting clammy in her grip, so she fiddles with it, expecting to be ignored while her new foster parent and the social worker go over paperwork and finances -- that's what they usually care about, how much they'll get to clothe and feed her, how much they'll ultimately get to keep for themselves.

She wonders if Sunoo -- her best friend back at the group home -- is still holding the walkie-talkie's twin, waiting for her to call, knowing full well the reception doesn't reach this far. But she's pulled from her thoughts when the brunette woman ignores the social worker completely.

Instead, she sits back on her haunches until she's eye-level with Yuna, and stretches out her hand. "It's nice to meet you, Yuna," she says. "I'm Yeji." After all her years in foster care Yuna has learned not to get her hopes up, but Yeji is making that task very difficult.

She speaks to her like an adult -- not a little kid -- and as soon as the social worker leaves, she opens the freezer to show Yuna the boxes of Twinkie she picked up at the grocery store, which means she must have actually read her file about her likes and dislikes. That's a first.

"So, kiddo, you hungry?" Yuna presses her lips together, fighting back a smile. "Yes," she says.

Yeji talks while Yuna eats, and she doesn't seem to mind that her mouth is too full of snack cakes to answer. She tells her that her wife, Ryujin, is at work but she's very excited to meet her. Yuna's ears perk up when Yeji mentions that Ryujin grew up in foster care too, and when Yeji winks before she steals a piece of Twinkie from her plate, Yuna doesn't even mind. (Another first.)

"I like your hair," Yeji says, topping up her glass of milk. Yuna swallows the last bite of Twinkie and trains her eyes on the table. "I don't." "Oh, okay. How would you like it to look?" "Long," Yuna says, eyeing Yeji's flowing hair enviously. "Pretty."

"When I was in college I got my hair cut, like, really short on a dare," Yeji says, rolling her eyes. "It was horrible, I literally cried for a week -- even though Ryujin swore up and down I still looked pretty." Yeji pauses for a moment, gazing out the window with a small smile on her lips. "Luckily my best friend, Jisu told me about this shampoo that helps your hair grow faster -- I'll pick you up a bottle tomorrow, how does that sound?" Yuna nods, her chest beginning to fill with something suspiciously close to hope. "Good," she says. "That sounds good."

Ryujin, Yuna finds out, is everything Yeji isn't. She's quiet and reserved and, in some ways, reminds Yuna of herself.

Sunoo would like her, she thinks. She clutches the walkie-talkie even tighter. "What's that?" Ryujin asks after Yeji has introduced them. "In your hand." On instinct, Yuna puts her hands behind her, shrinking back a little. Ryujin smiles and sits in a chair, putting some more space between them. "It's okay," she says. "I'm just curious. You don't have to tell me if you don't want to."

"My friend has the other one." Yuna exhales and relaxes a little. "Sunoo." Just saying his name makes her miss him and Yuna bites her lip, willing the tears out of her eyes. "Do you want to talk to him?" Yeji asks. "We can give you some privacy if you want. Anytime -- just let us know whenever you want to be alone." Yuna nods, and then shakes her head. A hot tear escapes and slides down her cheek. "He won't hear me. It's too far." She still tries to reach him that night, before she falls asleep in a room that's all pinks and blues -- her favorite colors -- with the walkie-talkie in her hand.

Yuna doesn't think she knew what love was until she met Yeji and Ryujin.

Before she thought love was what she'd seen in the movies -- all bold declarations and sappy vows. She knows that, in real life, love is anything but -- love can be violent and harsh, hard hands and even harder words. But for Yeji and Ryujin, it's so soft.

In this tiny blue house, with chipping paint and peeling wallpaper, love comes in the form of lingering touches and bright laughter and coffee in bed. There's love in Ryujin's eyes when Yeji calls out the right answer during 'Jeopardy!' and there's love in each line of Yeji's drawings, which always seem to feature Ryujin's hands or ears or eyes. (She's doing a study in the human form, she says, but Yuna thinks it's more like a study in Ryujin.)

And, if Yuna were the type to get her hopes up, she'd find love in the flowery bottles of shampoo Yeji buys for her and the new, cotton dresses Ryujin lets her choose from the store and the never-ending supply of Twinkies in the cabinet. But she's not the type. Definitely not.

"Hey Princess," Ryujin says one day when she comes home from work. Her hands are behind her back, which isn't all that unusual, but something about her smirk makes Yuna wary.

Yuna had been living with Yeji and Ryujin for six days when Ryujin asked if she could call her "princess" and, though only Sunoo had ever tried calling her that, Yuna found herself smiling and nodding yes.

"Hi Ryujin," she replies. Yuna twists the colored pencil in her hands and watches Ryujin with wide eyes as she sits across from her at the table and places a gift-wrapped box in the center. "Sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt," Ryujin says, looking at her drawing. "You're doing really well."

"She has a good teacher." Yeji walks into the room and squeezes Yuna's shoulder. Based on the way Ryujin blushes, Yeji's giving her her most dazzling smile. "Well, that and she's really talented." Yuna feels her ears heat up and she and Ryujin share an embarrassed look, because they both grew up rough and yet Yeji can disarm them both in three seconds flat.

"What's in the box?" Yuna asks. "It's for you, kiddo." "Guess you'll have to open it to find out." Yuna's pulse is racing as she places the box in her lap and carefully begins unwrapping it. She takes care not to tear the shiny, pink paper -- it's beautiful, and she'd like to save it.

She glances up to see if Yeji or Ryujin want her to go faster, but they're just watching her -- Yeji now settled in Ryujin's lap -- with excited smiles.

Once Yuna neatly tears the tape away, she folds the paper into quarters and places it on the table before she finally allows herself to look at the box in her lap.

It's a walkie-talkie.

Like hers, but much bigger and heavier. "We bought another one, too," Yeji says.

"Sunoo has it." Ryujin nods. "And the signal will reach."

Tears are spilling down Yuna's face before she can stop them, and the next thing she knows she's launching herself into Yeji and Ryujin's arms.

They pull her into their laps and hold her, crying with her, and for the first time in her life Yuna decides that here, with them, she can hope all she wants.