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Memory

-Alanur-
When I woke up in the morning my head was hurting so bad and some memories came into my mind that I saw Ziya after all these years.
-Wasn't it a dream?-Alanur was thinking. But after few minutes of thinking she understood that it was a reality. She understood that after few days she will have to see him again and even not only one time. With all these thought she got out of bed and took a shower. This day Alanur wasn't in a mood. Her soul and heart was in pain, she didn't want to do anything, so she just left the curtains drawn, took off a Ziya's sweater from the wardrobe which always helped her to feel better, lit a fire in the fireplace and then with a Ziya's written letter in her hands she was just looking to the fireplace. Alanur was trembling and cold.
A:-maybe I got a cold?-she was thinking and to get warmer she hugged herself with Ziya's sweater.
A:-it could have been different. Now we could watch to this fireplace together...-while Alanur was thinking, a tear rolled down her cheek.
With all these thoughts and with a letter in her hands, Alanur fell asleep in front of fireplace.

***Alanur's dream/memory***
-Ziya, if we would have a daughter which name you would like to give her?-Asked Alanur.
-Hm...I really love Beste's name. It reminds me of my grandmother.-Ziya answered. - And if we would have a son, which name you would like to give him?- Ziya asked.
-I don't know, I think I would like to name him Deniz. It would remind me of this our moment how are are sitting together and watching to the sea.-Answered Alanur and a little bit shivered because of sea breeze.
-Are you cold?-Asked Ziya.
-Just a little bit.-Answered Alanur.
Then Ziya moved a little bit from Alanur and took off his sweater and gave it to Alanur.
-Will you not be cold?-Asked Alanur.
-When I am with you, it's never cold for me.-Answered Ziya and tightly hugged Alanur with a kiss on her forehead.
-But you know that you will never get back this sweater, right?-Asked Alanur.
-Really? And why is it so?-With smile on his face asked Ziya.
-Because I will wear it always when I will miss you and you will not be next to me, your smell will help me to imagine that you are next to me.-Answered Alanur to Ziya and looked into his eyes.
-I love you, you know that, right?-Said Ziya.
-I love you too very much.-Answered Alanur.
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Then Alanur woke up. More precisely her daughter Beste woke her up from sleep.
B:-mom?
A:-Beste? Hi. When did you come?
B:-Maybe one hour ago. Why are you sleeping here? Are you sick?
A:-I was looking to the fireplace and fell asleep. I don't know, I don't feel good.
Beste kissed Alanur's forehead checking if she has a fever.
B:-mom! You're burning. Let me cook a soup for you.
A:-You don't have to. I am not hungry.
B:-Shh. You have to eat if you want to get better. Lay down and I go to cook a soup, okay mom?
A:-Okay, i love you.
When Beste went to kitchen, Alanur noticed that she doesn't have a letter in her hands. She looked around and saw it on the table. - Probably Beste took it from my hands.-Alanur was thinking.
After 30 minutes, Beste came back to Alanur with a bowl of hot soup in her hands. Alanur wanted to sit, that she could eat it by herself but Beste stopped her:
-No, mom. I will help you. You always helped us when we were sick so now let us to help you.
After Alanur ate soup with Beste's help, her daughter saw letter on the table and asked:
-Mom? Who wrote this to you?
-What?-Alanur at first didn't understand.
-This farewell letter. Who wrote it to you?-Asked Beste.
-Ziya or just my pain. It was twenty eight years ago. We loved each other very much. It was like a biggest love in this world, but our parents didn't want to let us to marry. So we decided to run from our houses to marry, but he didn't show up. Instead some person gave me this letter and told that Ziya sent it to me.-Answered Alanur.
-You didn't see him after this anymore?-Asked Beste.
-No, I didn't until yesterday.-Answered Alanur.
-What?How?-Asked Beste.
-He wants to collaborate with my gallery for a project so he came to the party yesterday.-Answered Alanur.
-Did you speak about this letter?-Asked Beste.
-Of course no. We just discussed most important things about that project and that's all. I just wanted to go from there as fast as I could.-Answered Alanur.
-But maybe you will?-Asked Beste.
-I don't know, I don't know anything anymore. And I don't understand anything too, I am so tired because of everything.-Said Alanur for Beste and rested her head on her shoulder.
-Okay, rest a little bit, mommy.-Said Beste.
They didn't talk anymore in this evenkng. Beste was thinking how hard everything was for her mother. She always seemed like a strong woman and even looked that sometimes she doesn't have any feelings, but after what Alanur told to Beste, she understood thay all this time she was wrong. Her mother was hurted very much and even after all these 28 years that pain didn't pass.

AFTER FEW DAYS. IN GALLERY.
Even if Alanur still didn't feel okay, she still went to gallery because she didn't want that Ziya would think that she runs from him even if she wanted to run very bad.
After noon, Onur came to Alanur's office and said:
-Mrs. Alanur, mr. Ziya came.
-Okay, he can come to my office.-Answered Alanur.
After Onur went from her office, she deeply breathed in and breathed out. Then she stood up just before Ziya came in to the Alanur's office.
A:-Welcome, Ziya. Sit down.
Z:-Thank you.
A:-So which details we still have to discuss?
Z:-You still look very beautiful.-Ziya said pretending that he didn't hear Alanur's question.
A:-I can't say same about you. the years have not spared you.-Answered Alanur.
Z:-Earlier you thought that I am handsome.
A:-Earlier...
Z:-So, how are you? How your life is going?
A:-Look at me, did you come to talk about me or about a project? Because if about me, then don't you bother because I will not answer and that means that you can go.
Z:-Okay, okay. Let's talk about project.
After some of time, they discussed details about project and then Ziya got a call. Since his phone was on the Alanur's table, she saw Seher's name on his phone screen and she knew that Seher is his wife, because when Ziya left Alanur, she found out that he is marrying some woman who name is Seher.
When Alanur saw this name on Ziya's phone screen, she started to feel not well, so she said:
-Ziya, if we talked about everything we needed, can you go?
-Of course.-Answered Ziya.
Then Alanur stood up and came closer to Ziya and extended her hand to shake his hand and said:
-Thank....
But she didn't finish the sentence. She just fainted in to Ziya's arms. He didn't understand what happened. He noticed that Alanur face is paled, so he started to ask for help with his worried voice.
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