If We Lasted Forever | BOOK 2 ✔️

7 | Apathetic

🎶'Nothing' by Neena Rose 🎶

Elijah Atlas Carpenter

I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine.
I want to die.

Fuck!

I hate everything. I heard Caleb talk to somebody and I'm certain they were talking about me. Which was a bitchy thing to do.

I felt anger and numbness and sadness and anger all at once. I hate everything.

Luke's phone rang again making me want to shoot everybody in a 10 mile radius. Seriously.

Luke's phone was connected to the car so we heard the call. It was Hans.

"Luke I'm just wondering. Where is your meeting tomorrow?" he says seemingly in a hurry.

"Eeeeeeeeeeeee it was a mansion. The address was. Ehm. Hold on." Luke looked through some papers.

"Got it. It's 4070 Eastwood, Gantown. Why?" he tells Hans. "Oh. Nothing just wondering. See ya" he hangs up the call.

That was... weird.

I had this weird feeling in my stomach and heart. It was similar to the twin-tuition me and Kie used to have sometimes.

It felt like something was wrong.

Dominic Ryan Perez

The doctor man knew. He asked a lot of question such as why we would tell him this and what is he supposed to do. All we said was that it's for Kiara's best interest.

He seemed to understand. Or at least pretend to understand. I sighed when we put the phone down.

"She will kill you" Will told me. "Yeah, probably" I rub my eyes.

I was doing the right thing. Right? She wasn't mentally well and somebody needed to fix it. We couldn't.

I wonder what she is doing right now.

Kiara Athena Carpenter

It feels so empty. Like all my words have lost meaning. I feel so apathetic that even the fucking cigarettes don't hurt against my skin anymore.

I throw it in frustration. If I fucking have to. I think to myself grabbing a box cutter. Those shits were sharp as fuck.

Nothing. I'm covered in my own blood and I don't care. I don't remember what it felt like to care.

It's just nothing. Deep black. Just really fucking empty. Like the black hole swallowed me whole.

And I didn't even care. So what? If I die, I die. If I stay stuck in time forever so will it be. I just couldn't find it in my body to care.

"Athena" Dominic knocks on my door. I don't even bother to move. "Open the door" he says sternly. I reach to turn the lock.

He walks in and almost freezes when he sees me. But I don't care. And I don't even care that I don't care.