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It's not fair
How you took my chance away
You were struggling, I know
But did you really have to go?

It wasn't easy
Neither of us had it easy
So how could it have been fair
But that doesn't take the pain away

I was there
I was right there
So why was I still so far away?
Why did you never say?

I never would've run away
I still don't want to walk away
If only I had known
If only I was told what was going on

In the deepest parts of your brain
All locked away
I would've found a way
That didn't involve us parting ways

I felt you slip between my fingers
Because of that, I acted wrong, I admit it
But I was only working with half a story
Now I'll forever be sorry

I'm not ready to let you go
To not be your person anymore
But in order for either of us to grow
I have to let go

I hope you know
That even though you needed me to go
I'll never grow
To resent our flow

Your love was everything I needed
I'll never forget that feeling
you made be better
you helped me grow in ways unknown

You healed wounds I deemed forever open
Helped me find parts of my I thought were forever lost
You gave me memories, a taste
Of a world I've never known before

Thank you for the memories
They'll always be the best part of me
I'll cherish every moment
Even if there is no longer a tomorrow

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If you ever read this, know that no matter what has been said, no matter how long it has been nor how far apart we are, I'll always be there for you if you need it. Still admiring you and rooting for you, only this time from afar. I hope you continue to achieve your dreams and find your happiness. But above all, never let anyone feel bad about telling them how you feel or prioritizing yourself. They're wrong. 

You are enough, and you will always be enough. So fuck everyone who doesn't see that and tries to dim your light, you are worth so much more. You should always be able to tell how you feel, no matter what it is, and even if you yourself think it's bullshit. I'm sorry I failed to create a space where you felt safe and able to do so.

You will forever hold a place in my heart, especially now. So don't you ever feel guilty about what happened. It is what you needed, and I'm glad you found the courage to tell me, even if it hurt because it meant the end.