song for the chapter: All I Want By Kodaline (same as last chapter)
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tears streamed down my cheeks. I can't handle this. he doesn't remember me. I can't do this. there was an awkward silence I was just crying and staring longingly at jacob. he looked like he felt bad but still confused.
"I'm sorry." I said. I walked out before he could say anything. it was raining outside now. I stood outside crying in the rain for a long time. my tear ducts ran out. I couldn't cry anymore. my throat hurt like crazy. I walked to my car with my head down. I got in and drove home.
when I got home I got in bed. I just laid there. questioning why the person I love doesn't know who I am. what if he never remembers me? what if he doesn't even like me anymore? he could have a whole different personality. I cried myself to sleep.
I woke up and my eyes were terribly sore. I walked in the bathroom and it looked like I had two black eyes. I thought about the day before. I left him. at the time he needed me most I left him. who does that? who is that cruel and inconsiderate? me.
I'm not going to see him anymore. I don't have to see him again. my mom let me skip school today. it's Friday so I have all of the weekend too. I want to kill myself. I want to die. I hurt a guy that I love and could possibly love me. I took 24 ibuprofen. maybe it'll take the pain away. maybe I'll die. I'm happy with both id prefer to die though. what am I supposed to do...
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