Together (Jacob Whitesides Fanfiction)

Chapter 4

I woke up slowly. I crooked my head towards the clock. it read 10:22 am. "Shit." I thought. I jumped out of my bed as fast as I could. I was late for school. it started at 8:15. I should be in my 3rd hour right now. geography. I ran to my dresser. I picked out some black leggings a long sleeve dark blue shirt. I didn't bother with makeup. I threw my hair up in a messy bun and put on my black uggs. I was already counted absent so I would just wait till 4th hour which started at 11:16. I slowly walked to the kitchen. I went to the refrigerator and grabbed the milk with the red label and cap. Then I went to the pantry and picked out Cinnamon Toast Crunch and took a blue bowl out of the dish drainer. I poured a good amount of cereal and some milk. everyone always tells me I use to much milk. I like all my cereal to be soft though. I walked to the couch careful not to spill my cereal. I picked up my phone off of the table. I had 1 new text message from Jacob which now had a heart emoji by his name.

Jacob ♡:
"Hey babe"

Babe? I shivered. he gave me butterflies. why'd he call me babe? does he like me? we barely even know each other. do I really want a boyfriend? what if he's a player? I decided to reply.

Me:
" Shouldn't you be in school "babe" "

I really like him. he's so cute and interested in such amazing stuff. I thought about the song that said it was by Jacob Whitesides. I forgot I had asked him his full name. i unlocked my phone and clicked my messages and went to our conversation. I scrolled up to where I asked him his full name. he had said it was Jacob Michael Whitesides. that couldn't be right. he couldn't be famous. he seemed so caring and down to earth. guys that are famous are full of themselves because girls fall over them. maybe some singer might just happen to have the same last and first name. I knew questions about famous people would be commonly searched so this should work. I googled "what's Jacob Whitesides middle name?". I clicked the first result. his middle name was Michael. Jacob is fucking famous. oh my god. that's probably why he called me babe. what a player. i wasn't mad at Jacob. I didn't really want to go on the date now though. I guess I could just say something came up. I texted him.

Me:
"something came up and I don't think I can make it to the date now. sorry. I really wanted to go."

he replied immediately.

Jacob ♡:
You're lying. what's wrong? what did I do?

Me:
you're famous.

he called me. I hesitated but then clicked the green button.

"Hey" I said.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I was just tired of girls using me for fame. I really like you and I don't wanna blow this. please don't be mad at me." Jacob rushed.

"I'm not mad Jacob. it's okay. I like you too. I was too quick to judge you. I'm sorry." I said feeling guilty.

"I have a question" he said.

"have at it" I said comfortably.

"Audrey, Will you be my girlfriend?" he said sounding insecure.

I sat in silence for a while.

"J-Jacob, I don't know if I'm ready for this." I forced.

"when will you be ready?"

"I don't know"

"Well Audrey I just want you to know I will wait. I will wait forever. you're different. not like any other girl I've met before. you're not selfish, you don't follow the crowd. you're beautiful and smart. you're the one I want." he said naturally.

I didn't know what to say. I felt like I wanted to cry. no one ever had accepted me like that.

"awe. I don't know how to answer. thank you. no one has ever been that nice to me. can I come over after school tomorrow? you have a swimming pool right?" I said.

"Yeah sounds good. I'll see you tomorrow. have perfect day at school." he said sweetly.

"Bye Jacob" I said laughing at his cheesiness. it was sweet though.

it was 11:00 on the dot. I walked out of the house, pulled myself into my truck, and drove myself to school. the day went by slow. I didn't really have anyone to talk to at school. if I tried to talk to them they'd insult me or something. they've called me fat, ugly, dumb, stupid and all kinds of other stuff. I wanted to kill myself. I wanted to believe those things weren't true but I knew they were. i have scars on my thighs from cutting myself. the things they say get to my head. I feel like I'm in the middle of the ocean and the waves are pulling me under. I can't my breath so I just let go and stop struggling. maybe that what I should do. let go and stop struggling. it would take a burden off of everyone I'm around. I'm sure if I was gone no one would even notice. it would be like I was never there. all it took was 1 night and a few to many pills. cutting for me is like coping. letting my feelings out without anybody knowing. it feels good. my mother says I have destructive habits. I scratch my head, lips, and knuckles until they bleed and I bite my nails. I honestly don't even notice when I'm doing it. it makes me feel more pain physically and less emotionally which I prefer. I can't let Jacob find out. he wouldn't want to be with a girl who self harms. he's too good for me already.

finally the day was over. I went home and luckily I had no homework which was surprising since its Monday and I'm in high school. when I got home I went straight to sleep. I went to sleep thinking of Jacob. he was all I thought about. all I cared about. why didn't I say yes when he asked me out. what did I do.

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