uh this might be triggering. sorrysorru. ASK is still open.
song for this fic is Everything I didn't Say- by 5 Seconds Of Summer(my dorks)
enjoy interweebs (:
Dear Caspar,
It's been a while, hasn't it? I don't want you to miss me, Caspar. I know it's hard, but please understand that it was impossibe for me to keep on living this way. So, this is everything I didn't say.
Wait, don't tell me, heaven is a place on earth
I wish I could rewind all the times that I didn't
Shown you what you're really worth
I wish I could've told you everything I felt the day before I left. I don't I belonged here anyways, I was always hated on, no talked to me, well, until you came along. But that didn't stop the hate. I'm sorry I was never a good boyfriend. Even though you told me I was fabulous.
The way, you held me, I wish that I had put you first
I was wrong I admit, numb from your kiss
While you were slipping through my fingertips
I never did put you first did I? I'm sorry. I always ignored you when you tried to cuddle with me. Always wrapped up in my YouTube videos, trying desperately to make them better. I always thought if I had invested more into my videos, it'd stop the hate. But it didn't. It only made it worse.
Taking every breath away
With all of the mistakes I made
From all the letters that I saved
This is everything I didn't say
Everything I didn't say. Caspar Lee, I was so madly and deeply in love with you. I'm sorry I never I told you this. I want you carry on with your life. Don't keep holding onto me. Move on. I'm not worth it.
Yours truly,
Joe Sugg.
P.S. there is no doubt I'm already dead by the time you get this.... Everyone else already got their letters... I don't know why I wanted you to get yours last. I love you.
A/N; heyyyyyy. so Warning Zone is up, and Social Casualties is up! SC will be updated on MOndays and Saturdays starting next week. WZ will be updated every thursday. the oneshots will be updated everyday. BUT YES. that is it for this chap (: until next time brochachos; stay classy, be sassy, dont you chnage for anyone. word count; 402.
