Bloody Rose ~Aidou Love Story~

Doubt

I was starting to doubt myself. As of yesterday, Kaname has finally completely stopped paying attention to me. I overheard him talking to Yaguri saying that the only reason he kept Zero alive was to keep Yuuki's affection. Does he even know that while he's keeping Yuuki's affection, he is pushing me away in the process. Sometimes I feel that he intends to push me away.

I walked through the campus trying to get my head off of that bitter subject. I know that I'm not suppose to be out here, but if I get lucky Yuuki will be the one to find me instead of the angry Zero. I sat down looking at the body of water in front of me. Aidou wasn't going to come looking for me anytime soon. I had told him that I was going to go outside for some fresh air, so I was safe for a while.

All I could thank about was that though. Did Kaname seriously not care about me anymore? I wish that Yuuki would find me. Maybe she would understand my feelings. Probably not since she is showered with love by Kaname every single day. I sighed, putting my finger in the water, causing ripples to appear, blurring my image in the water. That's all I was to Kaname; just a blur in his memories. There was movement behind me, someone was coming towards me. Normally I would have cared, but today, I'm not one to care about things right now. I immediately knew who it was when a gun was pressed to the back of my head.

"What are you doing out here. Aren't you suppose to be with your precious brother?" I looked back at him for a moment before turning back around to the water. I really didn't want to talk to him at the moment. He would probably make my day even worse then it already is. He pressed the gun harder against my head. "I asked you a question, vampire." I looked back at him again, turning all the way around so that I was facing him. I grabbed a hold of the gun, pushing it against my head once again.

"If you are going to shoot me do it already." I got up, still holding onto the gun but moving it to my heart. "But if you really want to kill me, you have to shoot here." He looked taken a back for a moment. He did not expect any vampire to be acting like this. "To answer your question, Kaname doesn't care about me anymore. You can shoot me right now and he wouldn't care." He looked straight into my eyes, seeing that they were full of sadness. He didn't know what to do. He lowered the gun, leaning back against the tree and falling to the ground. I turned back around, putting my hand back in the water.

Zero continued to stare at me. He had no clue why he didn't just pull the trigger. It was probably because the person in front of him reminded him so much of Yuuki. Our eyes were the same and so was the color of our hair. "What's like it like to love someone but have to see them loving another every day." Zero glared at me, flashing his gun again. "I'm trying to be rude, but I want to know. You see Yuuki every day flirting and trying to impress Kaname. I can see it in your eyes. You care deeply for her."

Zero growled, not knowing why he was staring with me. "That's none of your business. You have no idea what I feel for her." I sighed. Everything became silent after that. I continued to make ripples in the water while Zero sat there in confusion. "Why are you even asking something like that anyway?" He asked, looking everywhere but in my direction. "Why would a pureblood like you even care about what I do." I neither looked back at the boy or answered his question. He would be beyond pissed if I told him that I felt sorry for him.

"That's none of your business." I repeated his last answer. To be honest, I don't even know why I'm talking to him. It's probably because Yuuki is friends with him. If it wasn't for Yuuki, I would have already killed for for putting that gun to my head, but I just don't care. My thoughts were confusing. They swayed every which way, not knowing what to think. "Don't you just wish things could be simpler?" He looked at me, no emotion showing on his face. 

"No, I don't. Things are fine the way that they are right now." I looked at him amused. If things were really fine for him, then why is he so angry at vampires all the time. "I don't care if Yuuki is in love with that pureblood. I don't care about Kaname either." Everything he was saying was a lie. I could see in his eyes that he did care about Yuuki's love and he did care about Kaname. If he wants to lie, then the lie has got to reach his eyes. "What are you so amused about?"

"I think it's funny that everything you are telling me is a lie." He looked at me surprised before immediately regaining his emotionless face. "Don't worry, I'm not going to tell Kaname. He doesn't listen to me anyway." Zero now let his confusion show. I sighed looking back at the water. He's going to like an explanation. "I'm just a blur now. Before, if I had tried to leave the academy, Kaname would have stopped me. Now," I paused looking back at Zero. "He won't even bat an eye if I died right in front of him." This certainly shocked Zero. Vampires having family problems, he didn't think that would happen. "He cares so much about Yuuki, he's starting to completely ignore me. The others, well, the only reason they even notice is because I'm a pureblood, but mostly because I'm Kaname's sister."

I got up, Zero getting up along with me, brushing all the dirt off of the white uniforms. "If he doesn't care about you then why don't you just leave? Like you said, they only care because you are a pureblood. You'll be doing us all a favor if you did." I sighed for the millionth time that night. I don't know why I stay. Zero does have a point. I'm probably just getting in Kaname's way, hanging around him all the time. I can just go stay with some other vampires. I don't think Sara would mind. 

"She's not leaving." Surprised, I looked to where the voice was coming from only to see Kain and Aidou. When I looked closer I could see Yuuki standing behind the two. Why are they all the way out here? Why is Yuuki with them? Aidou walked closer to me, glaring at Zero the whole way. It was probably because he had his blood rose out, wrapped tightly in his hands. "I really hope that you weren't planning on shooting Kasumi. If you did, then I would had have to kill you." He turned to me, pulling me into him, worry written all in his eyes. "I thought you were just going out for fresh air." He was making me feel guilty. "I was really worried about you, you know." And now the guilt completely consumed me.

"I'm sorry Aidou. I just, I just needed to clear my head." He nodded his head, completely understanding where I was coming from. He knew what was happening between me and Kaname. He and Kain were the first people to notice it. The others are still as clueless as ever. Aidou took my hand is his, basically dragging me back to where Kain was standing. Yuuki was now by Zero, clearly giving him a talk about pointing guns at people. 

We walked back to the dorms, me just realizing what the time was. I had stayed out there a while, missing all my classes in the progress. It was silent between the three of us. Neither one of us knowing what to say to the other. They had clearly heard what Zero was saying. Who knows if they heard anything else as well. I hope not.

"Kasumi, you know that I care about you, right?" I nodded my head, not wanting to utter a word. "I'm not those other people who only talk to you because of Kaname." We stopped right in front of my bedroom door, Aidou continuing to talk. "I love you. Even if you weren't Kaname's sister, I still would have fallen for you." He leaned down pecking me on the lips, opening my door and leading me in. "Now enough talking, you have to go to bed. The sun is rising and you need to get all the sleep you can." I smiled, taking off my uniform and putting on my pajama's, not in front of Aidou of course.

I got under the covers, turning to where I could see him pulling up a chair. "What are you doing?" I asked, confusion dripping from my every word. 

"I'm going to stay with you until you fall asleep so that you don't feel alone." I smiled, taking his hand in mine and closing me eyes. I was happy that Aidou was with me. Even if everything was just a lie for him. Slowly I fell asleep, Aidou staying by me until then. Aidou started having a feeling that something bad was about it happen. He didn't know what, but he knew something was going to happen. He looked down at the sleeping vampire praying that nothing happened to her. If something did happen, he would die.