I'm sad and I don't really know what to say I just need to get this out somewhere my heart feels like it was ripped from my chest with a rusty dager and I'm afraid I'm not sure of what but I think its abandonment I miss my old friends and ex's but they don't matter anymore if it was supposed to be it'd happen I just have to remember to smile no matter what you lost even tho Ganny is gone she will forever be in my heart and mind same with my ex but the hurt will fade I remember my Ganny telling me that in a dream she said the pain will lessen over time and it may still hurt at times but everything will turn out how it should in the end writing this helps a little bit but not much I'm still in a lot of pain but it'll be ok hugs self frowning some just have to stay strong....guess I'll write more later maybe this will be a good way to cope sighs I hope
