cigarettes out the window

9

It's night and me and Tom are on the balcony talking about stuff.

«ok so I've been thinking about something»
«what is it?»
«how come you already dated someone but never had your first kiss»
«I don't really know. I think it was because I still thought it was wrong to like another girl» I explain.
«I understand»

He already finished smoking. He always waits for me, i think it's cute but unnecessary. Lately he's been acting weird; he holds my hand or my wrist when it's not needed, he asks for cuddles or attention and no sex, he even started hugging me even when the others are around.

After the last puff I throw the cig out of the balcony.
«I'll go sleep now, good night»
«good night y/n»
I walk to my room but get scared when i see a figure on my bed.
«what's up y/n» Bill greets me
«what are you doing here?»
«just wanted to talk, you know some chitchat time» he gesticulates a little.
«okay..? what do you wanna talk about?»
«Do you like my brother?» I choke on my saliva.
«of course not.»
«yeah, sure.» he gives me a side eye.
«what? it's true»
«you had a crush on him before» He states.
«yeah but it was years ago»
«but you still like him now» Bill insists.
«No. yeah he's handsome and all but I don't think i like him» I say.
«yet»he adds.

I roll my eyes and lay on the bed.
«do you like anyone?» I ask him. He stays quiet. His lips forming a line. I raise my head and smile
«you do like someone!» I say in excitemen
«Who is it!? » I jump to him and shake his arm
«no one..»
«what do you mean no one? tell me about her, do I know her? is she pretty? is she another famous artist?» I question him all in one breath.
«yeah.. right. her»

silence.

«oh so it's a boyy, you could have just told me. Ok so how is he like?»
He doesn't answer and i look at him. Finally i realise.

«aren't you weirded out? about me liking dudes»
«why would I?» I ask as I shrug my shoulders.
«It feels wrong» I get it now
«I felt this way too, you know?»
He looks at me
«really? you like girls?»
«yeah! It took me a while to accept myself but I was alone. I will help you being yourself, I will always be by your side. Ok?» I see his face lighting up. He smiles and I smile back. Bill hugs me and hug him too.
«Thank you so much y/n!»
«no problem, I'm glad it helped you»

He stand up and stretches his arms.
«I'mma go to sleep now. Goo night!»
«sleep well!» I wave to him.
I look at the clock on the night stand. 00:01 am
I sigh and lay on my bed. I think about nothing and nothing come to my mind. I try to sleep but i can't. Guess i'll do nothing till I fall asleep. Suddenly i hear my phone ringing. It's an unknown number. I shrug and just pick up
«y/n..» A familiar voice says
«come back» shit. It's my mom