A Boy by the Name of Theseus~a Transinnit sbi story~

Prologue

Tommy POV:
I guess I always kind of knew, Y'know? That I wasn't a girl.

I never liked the things other girls liked, not that that made me trans. I always kept my hair short, which girls can do too. But something most girls don't like that I always did was people thinking I was a boy. I wanted people to think I was a boy; I dressed how boys did, kept my hair short, and as I got older I wore baggy clothes so that people couldn't see my body, I tried to make my voice sound deeper.

But somehow it never clicked that I was a boy. I never stoped to think about all these things. I think that's why I took me until I was 15 to realize I wanted to feel like a boy because I am a boy.

I realized that feeling I had when I looked really feminine and people thought I was a girl and when I wasn't like the boys my age in some way, that uncomfortable feeling was gender dysphoria.

When I saw a pretty boy and wanted to be like them, it wasn't because I wanted to date them, I wanted to be a boy; gender envy. 

I realized that the feeling I had when people called me 'he' or I looked like the other boys was gender euphoria. I felt it when I sounded like the other boys too, when I first cut my hair short, and when I was perceived as a boy.

I wish I could have known sooner because now when I look into the mirror, I don't see myself. I see some girl looking back at me, and it hurts knowing that if I had realized I was trans sooner I could've avoided this feeling.

Now I have to wear a binder to feel comfortable in my skin. Thank XD my family is so accepting of me. I was able to start testosterone a few months ago, and it's helped me but there's still so much of me I don't like, because it's not really me. I hate this body.

I talk with my nephew; Fundy about it a lot, he's older than me which is kind of weird, and he found out he was trans when he was really young so he helped me figure it out for myself. I'm really glad to have Fundy.

I'm really happy to have such a supportive dad, sure Fundy had a dad that excepted him too, but Wilbur didn't really raise him. Dadza has been great to me and I can't tell him enough how much it means to me.

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