Melancholy

18

Tomorrow is the day I will get married, Eugene's sister has gone back but she will come tomorrow for the ceremony for which I am not happy. But I am not happy about other things too, as the time for my marriage is coming close my insides are screaming at me. They are telling me to stop it, stop this madness.

I walked out of my room wanting to ease my mind off and calm my nerves. I am battling between love and ego, and in my case ego is winning.

I saw Clara, Ares's mother watching out of the window with a longing look on her face. I stepped towards her and followed her gaze. There was Ares standing in the garden with Agatha by his side. She was shying at what Ares said and even giggled.

"Doesn't they look good?" She asked me and I froze. I was too scared to what will come out of my mouth so I stayed quite.

"But.. Agatha is not even a noble... and Ares is a commander. Don't you think it's unfair to him.." I said knowing what I said is rubbish. She smiled and looked at me.

"Agatha was never my choice, my choice was someone else.." she paused and held my hand.

"But may be God has other plans. Agatha however not from noble blood, is a beautiful girl who I know will take care of Ares. I have seen love in her eyes for Ares" she said and I glared out of the window at the couple.

"Does Ares knows?" I asked, my voice wavering a little.

"He had left it on me to decide, he said he would marry anyone of my choice. I know he won't say no to Agatha" she said with surety and I clenched my hands in to fists.

"Well ... Good for them!" I bit out and turn to move away but she held my hand.

"You will always be the one he loves," she told me and utter relief washed over me but I didn't let it come on my face. I walked out in to the gardens. When Agatha saw me she immediately left and went inside.

Ares was looking at me, I could feel his gaze over my face but I couldn't make myself to look in his direction. So I start to walk ahead when he called me.

"Are you alright?" He asked me, I don't know how but he knows everytime when something is wrong with me. I am a kind of person who hid their emotions excellently but for some reasons I could hide from him. He always sees through me.

"Why do you care?" I retorted. He sighed and rubbed his forhead.

"That is something I also don't know!" He murmured lightly but I heard it.

"You couldn't even wait for me to get married before settling down. Hence proved you never loved me. You are so eager to replace me" I said calmly but I was turning from inside. He looked confused for a moment and then he smirked.

"You rejected me six years ago, that's a long time for getting over someone!" He said.

"So you admit that.. you got over me?" The last words came out in a whisper. He doesn't love me anymore?

"Agatha is a nice girl,!" He said thoughtfully and that did it for me.

"Screw you!" I cursed hum, and went inside.

For the rest of the day I lock myself in the room not letting anyone to come inside. I tossed and turned on my bed the whole night not able to sleep. The thoughts of seeing Ares with Agatha plagued my mind. But why am I reacting like this? He is right, I rejected him years ago, brutally breaking his heart and now when he is finally going to get happiness I want to ruin it. Maybe I am not as good he is!

"No, this can't happen!" I sat up and slid out of my bed.

I ran out of my room still in my night shirt not caring what might happen if someone see me like this especially my mother. I don't care right now. I stopped infront of two double doo. I was panting badly due to running. I knocked on the door like a lunatic. I heard shuffling from the other side.

"What the...!" He growled but stopped when he saw me.

"Princess what are you doing..." I didn't let him complete as I embraced him. He froze for a second.

"Leonora...!"He called me softly and placed a hand on the back of my head lightly rubbing it. I realized I was crying!

He pull me inside still cling to his arm and close the door behind us.

"What happened?" He asked me gently still caressing my hairs.

"I can't... I can't do this... I... please don't marry her...!" I whimpered. He pull me closer to him as he sighed in relief.

"Then who should I marry? You know that I have to marry someday..." He was teasing me but I didn't let him complete.

"Marry me!" I said and pulled away as I gazed in his eyes. He looked taken aback!