Part 8, Kissing You, Leo’s POV
When I got home from school, I called Harry. Maybe he would actually pick up his phone. But, you never really know with Harry. Sometimes he wants to talk to you, and other times he tells you to leave him the hell alone. Harry picked up on the first ring.
“ Hello Leo.” He said happily.
“ Hello Harry. I am really sorry about what happened.” I told him
“ I am sorry too. I really meant to help you when they were calling you all those mean names. I was really sad when you left. It was all my fault.” He said to me.
“ No it isn’t all your fault Harry. I love you.” It was those three words that made me freeze. Had I actually just really said that to Harry Simones?
“ I love you Leo.” My heart just did a happy dance.
“ Do you want to hang out at my house with me tonight?” I asked him, waiting to hear the answer.
“ I would love to! What time do you want me to be there?” He asked me.
“ Soon…” I ranted off the directions to my house and he came with less than a half an hour. I was surprised that he didn’t get lost at all. I am really bad at telling directions to people. Most often they either go off the road, or get seriously lost. Then they call me and yell at me for totaling their car, or frying their brains. If they even have brains… When Harry walked in the door, he and I walked up to my room.
“ You have a really neat room.” Harry said to m, he lied down on my bed.
“ Thanks, I am glad you like it.” I said back to him
“ You should come and lay with me.” He said.
I went over and curled my body into his. We were spooning basically.
“ Next time they call you names, I will kill them.” He told me
“ Thanks, I would enjoy that very much.” I laughed and he curled his arms around my waist.
“ I really do love you Leo. I just don’t know how I want to say I’m gay yet. I mean I think that I look like I could be completely straight. I don’t want to be picked on and called terrible names. Maybe it would be best to keep it to ourselves until I figure something out.” Harry told me
“ Yes, this can be our little secret Harry.” Then he kissed my neck and it sent shivers running up my spine. I turned around so I was facing him. I kissed him sweetly. I didn’t want to pull away from his body. We kept kissing for what felt like hours. When we stopped to take a breath, he was on top of me and our shirts were off.
“ I should probably be getting home.” Harry put his shirt back on over his head.
“ Yeah, do you want to come over tomorrow after school?” I asked him as he and I both stood up. We walked out to the front door.
“ Yes, I would love to do that. And remember that I want to keep this a secret until I can figure out how to tell people that I am gay.” He said to me, we quickly kissed and then he went to his car. He drove away and I waved to him, as his car disappeared out of sight. I am so happy now that I have found love with someone who will love me back the same ways I love him.
The next day I went to school with a huge smile across my face. Ave met me at my locker. She looked like she had the best night on her life. I guess we both did!
“ Wow, why are you so happy Mr?” She asked me, laughing little.
“ I was gonna ask you the same thing. Well I guess you just have to wait and see don’t ya?” I asked her. We went to first class and I sat next the Harry and Ave. Class was so boring. So Harry and I started to pass notes back and forth with each other.
Did you tell anyone? He asked me
No, you told me not to. I told him
Okay, thanks. I trust that you would do what I tell you. Harry said to me. I wanted to hug him right then and there but then everyone would know. I wouldn’t want that, because then that would ruin Harry’s life. He would be kicked off the football team and no one would have any respect for him. All the girls love him, this will all just be a huge disappointment to them. Pout, pout...
Later on after first and second class, I saw Ave and Avery together, They were talking and laughing. I didn’t want to disrupt them. I didn’t have anyone to sit with at lunch. I thought that maybe Harry would want me to sit with him. I went over to the jock table and took a seat next to Harry. The moment I sat down, I could tell that everyone had stopped chewing, everyone’s eyes were on me.
“ Dude, what the hell are you doing?” One of them asked me. This is not going as I had planned it to.
“ I just wanted to sit down.” I told them quietly.
“ Well you aren’t welcome here gay boy. We don’t respect you. We will never respect you. You are into boys… GET OUT you stupid f**!” They screamed in my face. I sat up and stared at Harry.
“ And you never stood up for me.” Harry looked away as I walked away from that table. I went to go sit in the corner. Ave came and got me,
“ Hey Leo, are you okay?” She asked me
“ No, what do you think? Am I okay? Did you hear what they were yelling at me?” I asked her
“ Come sit with us.” I went to go sit with them. I didn’t know what to do. I was do hurt that Harry said he would stand up for me the next time that happened, and he never did!
The rest of my day went by really slow. I couldn’t wait to go home. I couldn’t wait to NOT call Harry. I am going to ignore him until he apologizes. When I walked away from the jock’s lunch table, I could feel everyone staring at m. I could hear them talking about me. I wanted to throw my food into their faces. I know that I would get in trouble for doing that. I just kept in all my anger. Until it bubbled over of course…
Harry called me when I got home. I didn’t want to pick up but after his one hundredth time calling me, I figured there was really no option but to pick it up.
“ What?” I asked him, instead of starting off our conversation with saying hello, how are you. That is all crap.
“ I am so sorry Leo. I wanted to say something. I really tried to, when I opened my mouth to speak… Nothing came out. I feel really bad and I really want you to forgive me. I know that I told you that next time that happened, I would stand up for you. I broke my promise. I apologize for that.” He told me
“ I don’t want to hear all this crap about how you didn’t stand up for me. I am not two year old. You know how much that hurt me when they said all that to me? It really, really hurts me Harry. You don’t know, because you have never been through what I have been through. I hope you are NEVER called what I have been called, too many times to even possibly count.” I told him
“ The worst part about this is that I think I have lost you. You are the one boy I love more than myself. I love you so much. I cannot bear to lose you.” He told me
“ You should’ve thought of that before you this all happened to me…” I hung up the phone… how could he do this to me.
I called Ave and she picked up on the first ring.
“ Hey babe, are you okay?” She asked me, she calls me babe now.
“ No, I am NOT okay. I am really mad at Harry. He told me that he was going to stand up for me. He NEVER did! I trusted him, he watched me cry. He watched them call me all those mean names and he never did a thing to stop them… Of course I am NOT okay. Would you be okay?” I asked her, thinking that she has probably been called the same things as I have been called.
“ I know that Avery has been called the same things as you. She told me that she just ignore them because it is not worth all the trouble with thinking that you are not good enough for the world. Everything will get better at some point. Maybe Harry just isn’t the right one for you. Maybe there is another buy who is madly in love with you, ad will stand up for you. He will never let you be hurt, he will always be there for you. He will hold your hand in front of the school. He will not be afraid of being called an f**. I believe that he is out there, for you.” We hung up the phone. That really didn’t make me feel any better about anything.
