Dear Pippa

Part 2

December 28

I'm not really sure what possessed me to start this journal, but it feels good to just let everything from the last couple of weeks out. Emotions, thoughts, rants, this journal is just going to be thoughts, and life.

Next year most of the kids from my year, me included are moving to a different school for years 11 and 12 as our old school only goes until Year 10. Most are going to the same school, but there are a few, some of my good friends included, who weren't accepted. They have either found another school or are going to TAFE. The last day of school was particularly painful. I had to say goodbye to hanging out with my friends in most of my classes, five days a week. Another downer was that my best friend, Cassie didn't even go. She is going to the same school as me next year, but she missed out on a really good day.

He was there, of course. We were together basically all day, with our friends that actually went.

December 30

Yesterday I was tempted to try and talk to him over iMessage, but I fought off the urge after talking to Cass for an hour.

Dad has decided that we are going up north for a few weeks until school starts again. It should be good, a nice distraction of sleeping, going to the beach and messing around with Cody. We are getting back two days before school starts again. I need to let Cassie know so she doesn't think that I've died or something.

I wonder what he thinks of me. Do I even cross his mind? He never leaves mine, he's always there, whispering at the back of my mind.

January 3

I still haven't spoken to him.

My control is crumbling, I can feel it. But it doesn't matter, we are going tomorrow. Then I won't have an opportunity anyway.