Run away (Dream SMP x child reader)

Chapter 4

TW: mention of bruises, cuts, self-harm, voices, eating disorder

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"Hi", I said quietly. After a few minutes of no one saying anything and just staring at us. I hear someone say, "What happened to their arms". I look at my arms to see what they were talking about, then I noticed that they were talking about the bruises and cuts I had. The bruise were from my "parents" and some of the cuts were too, but a lot of the cuts were from me cutting myself with a blade.  No one yesterday realized them and I didn't even think about the scares. 

I have been doing a good job at hiding them before but now I didn't know what to do, so I just hid them behind my back. Tubbo and Ranboo were standing behind me and Niki and I could tell they also heard what that person had said and that I had tried to cover my arms. I look behind me and they were going upstairs. I followed them 1 because I didn't want to stay in the quiet room with everyone staring at me, and 2 because I didn't want them to find the blade I had brought with me. 

I had lost them when I was following them and I had ran into someone. "Sorry, I didn't mean to run into you", I had said to the person looking down embarrassed. "Be careful next time", the person had said to me. When I looked up I saw a guy with a green hoodie, a smiley mask on his head, and dirty blond hair. It was the guy from last night that had came into Tommy's room when he was yelling. I could feel him staring at my arms so I just run away to find where Tubbo and Ranboo went.

I started to worry that they had found the blade. I start to hear things in my head like "They are going to take you back home when they see the blade. They are going to think that you are a freak". I started to cry a little bit because I didn't want anything like that to happen and I was starting to get weak because I haven't eaten anything just that little snack I had gotten at the store last night.

When I had gotten to Niki's room I was out of breath. I had ran through the entire house trying to remember when Niki's room was. When I walked into the room I saw Tubbo and Ranboo in shock. That is when I know that they had seen the blade that was in my bag. No no no I thought when they looked up at me. Everything is going bad no horrible I thought and I started to tear up again. That is when I saw the guy that I had ran into earlier walk into the room, he must have followed me if he saw me crying. He had noticed the blade that Tubbo was holding while looking at me. "What is happening, after the kid ran into me I saw them start to cry and run here", the guy had said. 

After he had said that Wilbur, Niki, and someone else had walked into the room. The other person with them looked like Tubbo but if he was a girl. I had later heard Tubbo say Lani so I got the idea that the girl's name was Lani. After a while of just standing in silence, Ranboo came over to me and hugged me. "You shouldn't do that y/n you could get hurt badly if you keep doing it", Ranboo whispered to me. "I know", I said. "But sometimes I don't feel myself doing it or I can't control myself when I do it", I whispered back to him still in tears. 

We went back downstairs after the whole situation was done with. I later learned that the guy I had ran into was Clay but everyone called him Dream. When I last checked my phone it was 9:28 am but now it was 2:36 pm. It was a little over 5 hours that we had been dealing with that problem. I know I had told Ranboo that I would stop but I know I wasn't going to. 

We had spent the rest of the day introducing me to some of the other people who lived in the house. I had met Sapnap, he has black hair, a white shirt with fire on it, and a banda with fire on it too. I also met George, he has dark brown hair, a blue sweater, and white goggles. I met Bad, I thought that was a weird name to have, but he had black hair, wore a black shirt, and had horns like Tubbo but his horns were white. 

When it became night everyone went to sleep but I couldn't, I stop thinking about the blade. I thought it is weird but I just wanted to do it before I went to sleep. So that is what I did I grabbed the blade out of the bag that they had put back for some reason and went to the bathroom. I had done 2 cuts and then banged them up. I was going to take the bandaid off in the morning so no one would know that I had done it again. I had cleaned the blade and my arm, I went back to my bed and made sure to put the blade back where it was in my bag. I grabbed Honey before I went to sleep.

Right before I had I heard something came into the room. It startled me and I went to the door I cracked the door open some so I could see if there was someone at the door. But there was no one there but then I heard a cat I looked down to see the cat rubbing against my leg. I had felt the door cracked open because the cat had come into the room and I couldn't see where the cat went. I went back and lay in my bed and started to fall asleep when I felt something laying next to me and then I see the cat. I cuddled it while I fell asleep.

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I think this was the long chapter that I had done

I didn't leave it on a cliffhanger this time but I also couldn't think of a good cliffhanger (Your welcome 00Aiko-Usagi00)

I would like to say if you are cutting yourself please talk to somebody about it and see if they can help you

Have a good night or day

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