I Don't Mind Being His Second Choice // Scarian // Scar x Grian

1.5

Grian's POV :

Scar is laying on me, He was comforting me about what happened with bigb, its a shame really, I really started liking bigb, i was crying, yes, but that's not what I was embarrassed about. I was embarrassed because my thoughts were instantly to take out who like bigb even though that would lead to his sadness, and if I really liked him, I would care far more about his happiness than mine, and leave him with ren.

But that wasn't all, I've never seen scar the way I do now, he was always handsome sure.. But I've never looked at him as more than a friend, that is until yesterday. He stayed at my house last night, he cared enough to stay, and that's cute.. That's nice..

I don't know why I see him like this, He's just a friend, he isn't anything more and he won't be anything more.

Taking my attention from the wall in front of me and directing it to scars p̶̶̶̶r̶̶̶̶e̶̶̶̶t̶̶̶̶t̶̶̶̶y sleeping face. He has his arms wrapped around me tightly. He looks so peaceful while quietly snoring. I spot a strad of hair covering his eyes, my hand moves the piece of hair, before I could even acknowledge what I just did.

I quickly put my hand down, laying it on the couch. His eyes are flickering, like they want to open at any given moment, great, I tell myself, amazing.

My sudden reaction was to close my eyes, if I can't see him, he can't see me, this hasn't happened, this won't happen. My eyes are glued closed, but I could feel his gaze on me.. And I open my eyes.

,, Good morning " he said softly. I could just fold at his voice.. But I choose not to give it up.

,, I really hope you had a great night sleep, and I appreciate it, but the mattress can't feel anything in its body.. "

,, I didn't know mattresses had feelings.. " he says, oh hod stupid he is.. Maybe his brain is still asleep.

,, well this one does. "

,, must be a special kind "

,, scar.. I can't tell if your joking or not.. BUT THE BLOODY MATTRESS IS ME. " I say ,, YOU'RE LAYING ON ME "

,, OH, no wonder its moving, you're breathing.. " he sadly gets off of me.. I know I asked him to, but.. I regret it already.

,, what time is it " he asks as he walks towards his phone. ,, 13:36!? " I hear him yell before running to the door.

If its 1pm.. Damn that must of been some nice sleep.. And for the first time in a while, I don't feel tired. I got after scar, following him to the door. He's putting on his boots.

,, going so soon? " the question escaped my lips. So soon? He's been here for hours.. But its still not enough for me.. Stay longer, I want to say, never leave, I want to say, but I don't.

He giggles ,, I have to feed jellie, she must be so hungry.. She'd kill me. "

Right.. Of course.. He has to feed his cat, jellie can get hangry if not feed, she'd eat him alive. I unlock the door, I hate everything that I'm doing right now, but the most hated part of this is letting scar leave.

,, I'm just gonna feed jellie. Ill be rig- " silence. ,, I forgot to buy food.. ALRIGHT, I'll buy food, feed jellie THEN.. I'll be back " he starts running out the door.

,, GOODBYE! " he shouts. I just wave my hand like an idiot.. I close the door and lock it. I walk to the clock on the wall and sit in front of it.

13:40 / 1:40pm

From when has being without scar been so miserable.. Damn.. Every second thought is about him..

It feels like the world gave me bigb to have a crush on him so I can could keep my love away from scar, I had a crush on bigb.. Im not embarrassed to confess that, however.. I don't like scar.. I might love h-