THE DESIRED

chapter 12 - Ramen

Ren's pov

I can't sleep now. That jerk has really messed my mind. After coming from the bar i straight went to bed, i don't have any authenticity to face Ayan. I talked behind him about his personal matter
hooo i can't ....... anymore

" Ren you alright" Ayan asked me.Didn't he Sleep ofcourse currently I am drifting around the bed beating the bed with my feet, ofcourse he can't sleep and am i not the only one who is not asleep.
" Nothing, i just .....can't sleep" i said facing him .
" Hmmm " he hummed and i trun around
After some time
" Ayan " i called him hoping he is awake
" Hmmm " he hummed
" You awake " i turn around
" Hmmm " he again hummed
He is still facing me
" Ayan " i called him "i m Hungry"i said without opening my eyes
" What do you want to eat " he asked me . I smiled , cause i thought he would be furious,who wouldn't be if anyone ask them to make something in the middle of night.
" Ramen " i said still closing my eyes
" Spicy "??? He said . I can hear his giggles
Then from the sound i know he get up from the bed . I opened my eyes and i can see light in the kitchen. I followed it. I saw he is washing the dish , taking the ramen . I sat on the kitchen slab and watching him doing all the stuff . I always admire him in a lot of things . Within 5 min my ramen is ready ,placed in front of me. If i was the one instead of him in the kitchen, the kitchen will fell apart, but here the kitchen seems perfect just like him. We sat together at table , eating ramen , in the middle of night . How romantic......
We didn't speak but i decided to break the silence
" Ayan , do you have anyone ,that you like " i asked hesitatingly . He didn't even flinch or look at me
" Why "? He asked
" Huhh" ?? I stopped eating
" Why are you asking it now " he asked.now I'm wordless i don't know what to say.
" Nothing, just huhhh.... Kind of want to know " i said
" No " he said while eating. Now I'm considering Blue's words
" No one"!! i asked surprisingly "not any girls ... Or boys " i asked suddenly and from the last word he stopped eating and looked at me.
" Okay fine " i drop the topic because from his look he is not interested in boys.
I continued eating and asked again
" Do you......ahmmmm ..... You "
" I what Ren " he asked while eating.
" Have you ..... Huhh.....had that" i asked hesitatingly
" Done what " he asked . I again breaking the word or searching for word. And i can clearly see his annoyed face
" Hhuhhh ......"
suddenly he put the spoon in the bowl and asked with a stern voice
" What "
Without wasting any second i asked without breaking " Have you ever had sex" ohhh i regret this. I can't face him . He didn't replied, stayed still , but I'm a mess right now. Don't know how to face him , my head is revolving around the room except his face.
" You are the one who asked me and now you are not facing me " he said and i can sense his strong eyes
And last i face him he is sitting there tied his hand in the front. I dumbly smiled without any reason, i think i made myself a freak.
" Don't you want to know " he asked me . He is smirking now. ohhh i hate it
" What .....
No . I .....huhhh I.... I'm sleepy i want to sleep . Good night" i ran towards my bed and covered my head with the blanket.

Ayan's pov

After coming from the bar Ren is behaving suspicious. He is avoiding me. I called him for dinner but he said he ate at the bar. But i didn't see him ate anything. He did was all talking to Blue, and i think he is the reason why Ren is behaving like this. I know he is not asleep. He is rolling in the bed , beating the bed with his feet. So i asked him
" Ren you alright" he turned around facing me and said nothing. But my heart is raising. Nothing is alright. Soon he turned back. I think if he last long to turn around i would be dead by now.
I closed my eyes but soon he again called me and asked am i awake. Ohhh i want squeeze myself i can't sleep like this. Why is he behaving like this.
Thus he know that i like him. In the bar i kept looking at him while playing the guitar. I think he noticed it, ofcourse everyone noticed it. Phi Dan , the owner of the bar asked me about him , and last he spilled the thing , is he my boyfriend. I said no to him. Because i don't want anyone to know my weakness . It's always will be a secret within me. I don't want anyone to know this even Ren. So I'm really nervous. Blue was there maybe he also noticed that , and they are glancing at me while speaking ,....oh i m done.
He again called me . I opened my eyes and saw Ren facing me but his eyes are still closed and said he is hungry. A smile has come to my lips. He is so cute now. Now i want him to know about my feelings, i want to hug him tight while sleeping,i want him to keep by myself .
I asked him what he want to eat and i know what he will say it's Ramen. Yes I'm right he did said Ramen. Without any other word i get up from the bed and go to kitchen. After some time he also came , he came and sat on the kitchen slap while watching my every step. He is giving me goosebumps. Do you know that ?
After making ramen we sat on the table sitting opposite eating the ramen. I saw him hesitation, wanting to aske me something. I he did asked me do i like someone.
Ofcourse i like you , i want to say this to him . But i said no. Yeahh i know I'm a coward...... But everyone is coward in front of their loved one , even for the great villains , they are the only ones we are afraid of . So don't judge me.
I think he is surprised by my answer he even asked me if like boys . That's funny he is pulling a strong effort to know my love life to know the one who i like , are you aware about the fact that you are trying to recover you yourself. Huhhh
Then again the same , he is trying to aske me something, but he is hesitant, this time a little too much , at Las he spill the tea , which surprised me
Really does he want to know abou my sex life too....
He is not facing me right now , i think he is shy now. His ears and face are all red now. I want to laugh loud. How about i kiss him right now . I want to tell him that i want to have sex with him, right now
I break the silence and called him but he still didn't face me and dumbly run towards the bed. Then i washed the dishes all smiling. If anyone saw me right now they will think that I'm crazy laughing all alone. I came towards the bed and i saw him full covered in blanket. I also sat on the bed .