THE DESIRED

Chapter -14. Bittersweet 1

Ayans Pov

Yesterdays picture is not fading away from my mind.its not like any other cases, Ren sitting with her it's disturbing me a lot.
"What are you thinking" she asked me.I don't know that she was watching me ,I'm still with her in her apartment. I'm not ready to face him now.
"It's just nothing huhhh..... " I stopped with a questioning look
" Saya " she replied with a smile.
I smiled and said " sorry I didn't asked that first "
"Not a problem because yesterday was just ....hummm superb" she replied with a shy wicked smile
I said nothing just a simple smile.
I was sitting on the floor while she in the bed facing me.
"What " she asked
"Nothing" l said
"Are you cheating on your girlfriend"
" Don't have any" I said
" Your face says the opposite " she said I smiled sarcastically.
"Are you what ....a mind reader" I asked
" Mmmm ....more specifically a psychologist not that great , just a PhD " she said
" What " she asked I didn't know I was looking at her with an intensed eyes.
" You are older than Me ?" I asked
"What you thought I was same age as you or may be younger like 18 or 17 " she asked with wickedness
" No , didn't know you....huhh...." I statered
" Old " she said
" No not like that"
" Then , you don't like older women" she again
" Please let me complete I....."
" You just slept with me and now insulting me " again
" Can you please just stop and listen to me " I said sternly looking at her
" It's true that I was surprised that  you are older than me , it's not because of the age difference,it's just you are .....huh...you look too young for your age " I said .
She was looking at me with a half covered face only her eyes are seen. After I finished she asked "am I not beautiful then "?
" No , it's  you are " I said, " No, did you just said no "  She asked
" No ... It's not a no , Yes you are beautiful" I said without giving her a  gap to interfere.
She smiled
" You are fun to tease " she said
I smiled
" You just love  her lot isn't it " she said
" What " ? I asked
" You love her right "? She asked
I just keep my silence. I really want to pull of these burden from me. She will understand I guess
" Does she "
"It's him " I said without letting her complete.
" Oh " she doesn't speak she was just looking at me
" Is he that handsome,to make you fall like this " she asked
" No , He is beautiful " I corrected her
" "OkYou didn't even mention me like that " she pouted but I said nothing just smiled
"Thus he know about you cheating on him " she asked
" He doesn't even know I love him " I said while smiling
" Ohh one side love"
"Why don't you just say to him"
" It's not that easy"
" Yeah say when his hair gets old " she said without even letting me finish .
"Why are you so irritating" I asked her
" Because I like to see you being irritated" she said looking at me , she really is  intimidating.
" Just stop it " I said
" Just say to him .you don't know what's in his mind , maybe he is waiting for you to start "
" Yeah it's the best time to propose him, when he introduced his girlfriend to me yesterday " I said the word girlfriend is even irritating
" That's why you are so gloomy yesterday"
"And you were happy about it " I said
" And I never regret it " she said
We both smiled
Actually it was nice speaking to someone
To relieve all the burden

Hope to see you soon
She said dropping me next to my apartment
"Ok bye" I said and walked towards the road.
"Hey "
" I just want to say , don't regret it ," she said
I looked at her
" It's about him , just say to him yes or no just say it , maybe he "
" I don't want him to agree" I said without letting her complete
" What"
" It's complicated, i am doing this because I don't want him to regret being with me
I just only want him to be happy , I just only want to see him , to see him smile that's enough "
she came close to me and hugged me and said " you know what you are a coward
I saying this because I don't want you to end up like me 
Go with the flow man  , don't think about the future, live the present life , enjoy all the present movements, friends , love enjoy it all "
Anyway all the best and good bye

Rens pov

I was talking to rose when Ayan goes to the bar, little did i know he is giving me space with her, but I didn't want to shadow him.
Later when I look back I saw him with a girl, but it was usual for him and I also know that he will  never gonna give in. Why dont he just let it be.
After sometime I again looked at their side and I saw him keenly watching her, that's something unusual. Are they  speaking something serious why they look so tensed
when I was about to get up I saw him kissing her.
I didn't even know rose was calling me until she touched my arm I was just watching them , kissing
"Phi I m not staying at the college dorm
I'm staying with my friend in the apartment nearby , phi are you listening"
Rose asked me but all I can think about is how he kissed her  I again looked back without bothering rose and I watch them leaving the bar while holding hands I followed them I thought they will only go to the washroom but they are Going to the parking area and they are leaving, he didn't even bothered to look at me.

it's been hours they left I returned to my apartment. Rose went by herself because  she told me she want to meet her friend later. I am holding my phone for a call or a message from him but nothing came
Oh who will send a message at this time
Asshole i told myself.
I still remember their kiss how he intensely kissed her it is playing around in my mind,and I can't close my eyes because I'm imaging them in the bed
What a bad friend I'm but I can't stop thinking about them , the kiss ,ayan leaving with her leaving me aside it's just irritating me , it felt like some rock is kept on my chest and it's been hours he didn't even messaged me. Can't his dick can just wait for a second to  text me saying  that he will be not coming, 
Who am I to him.
Fucking asshole, I'm gonna kill him when he comes back.

I don't know when I fell asleep even though I was waking up at some period of time and looking at my phone for a particular assholes message. Still I am holding my phone and looking for his message
I'm gonna fucking kill him  , fucking bitch.......I want to scream when I reach to the balcony I saw that asshole getting out from a car and saying a goodbye is he really Saying good bye , then the other door opens and here comes that girl from the bar. Does he like her , she is beautiful I agree but still it is not okay a bar hookup Ayan , I can't belive it shit....
And fucking not again they are  talking didn't they get time to talk yesterday , huh sure not they were talking , asshole..........
My head is hurting I want to call him asshole from here it's just minutes apart I'm holding my temper, still they are not leaving,
At last I called him , I saw he is getting the phone and looking at it ,a second later  my call was cut . I didn't call him again I didn't want to , I sat on the couch and yes who am I to him, I'm just a friend I don't have any right to say him not to date her or anyone, it's his life
My anger is growing and rather than that sadness is growing more.

The door opened and he came i said nothing  ,only

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