Who Will You Choose? [ON HOLD]

Chapter 1: What a girl feels...

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Chapter 1: What a girl feels…

Hiding your feelings isn’t the easy way out, but sometimes it’s the only thing you can do. You’re doing that because you want to protect yourself or maybe you’re not that ready to realize something that is hard to be accepted. But in every fight, no matter how angry you get, you always end up forgiving the people who hurts you. It’s because, you cannot take to see the things that just happened. Forgiveness. It is the only way. Forget about the past and continue to live on to achieve your dream. I think that all the time, I don’t get why people around me feels that way. It’s hard to express your feeling but it is the only way. We have a different obstacle in live so we are the one to decide whether you’ll take that risk or just run away.

That’s my daily routine. Always worrying someone’s life instead of worrying my own problem.

“How can I pass this stupid subject?! What should I do? Mrs. Kim will kill me on my low scores..” I whined at myself. I’m not good at academic, I prefer to be more active in extracurricular than it. As you can see, I’m idiot. Every time I wanted a high score, I always got the opposite. Sometimes I feel like giving up but I manage to fight against it. The only reason is- I have no choice, my father remarried another woman when my mother got busted. My mother was a prostitute. To all she looks so negative but deep inside, she’s really caring and lovable. She became like that because she just want me to have a proper life. She’s not a prostitute now, so I give her a chance and we still continue to communicate to each other but we secretly does it.

I grumble to myself and sat at the floor. I’m in the rooftop now. I always stay at the rooftop every time I feel sad. It’s just a perfect place to relax and the fresh air comforts me. Suddenly I felt a light paper thrown and it directly hit my forehead.

“Ow, what’s that?” I looked to see a crumpled paper, I pick it up and check someone who owns it. Then, I saw a guy sitting not so far from where I am. I slowly walk to him and when I’m near enough, he hurriedly sense me by looking up. I froze and my toes were trembling.

“I- I just want to give it back to you..” I said bluntly. “You know, just don’t mind it. You can actually got a high score next time. I really thought that I’m the lowest in this quiz, but I gained strength to try my really best to make it. The score of 0 is not that bad than cheated.” I said to him. He laugh a bit and snatches the paper in my hand. He straighten up the crumple paper and shows me his score. It’s 100 not 0. Idiot!!

“Oh, I- I thought it’s 0, mianhe..” I mumbled under my breath. I turn around to leave him then he spoke.

“Sit. You can sit beside me.” He said, tapping the chair next to him. I carefully lean to sit, quite shy because I didn’t expect him to talk to me.

“So, you’re the lowest, huh? So I should call you ‘Pabo’. Wether you like it or not I’ll call you that way~” he smirked. This guy is so annoying but to tell you the truth, he really looks so hot. He has cold, cute eyes and every time he smile, it ended up to be so kind. As you don’t expect him to be that kind. But of course, I don’t like him. I only have one guy in my heart.

Ren.

He is a guy who stole my heart. His benevolent eyes shine as he stared at me. With that look, I can feel my heart racing so fast. I can’t even talk when he’s around. I’m too dumb to express my feelings -_-

“So, why are you here? Looks like you have a big problem, am I right?” I snapped out to my thoughts and asked him. He look at me, wondering what’s on my mind, on how I knew about it.

“Problem? Well, I think.” He’s facial expression was change. It’s filled with sadness. As you look carefully on his shiny face- his eyes, that twinkle every time you see him, his sharp nose, the kissable lips and his white skin. You cannot think that this guy, almost perfect in everything has a problem. Just by staring at him, makes me feel how pain he carry his burden.

“Tell me, I’m good at listening to someone’s problem.” I said. He seriously look at me.

“What will you do if I tell you that, why? Can you erase all of it? Are you a God?” he rudely yelled at me. Hearing those words from him, makes me feel how he treat someone who has no value.

“Uh.. I didn’t mean to say that. You know, saying some problem to your friend is the only way to lessen-“

“Why? Are you my friend?” he said, with no emotion. I stood up angrily and said, “If you cannot treat me as friend then why don’t you just pretend to be? You know, it’s really sad to realize how stupid you are. It’s good that you said that to me but I warned you, DON’T EVER SAID THOSE WORDS TO SOMEONE ESPECIALLY TO A GIRL! You don’t know what a girl feels when they hear something like that. Goodbye to you..”  After releasing what I want to say, I quickly ran downstairs without looking or listening to what he say.

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