Tosiek didn't know Leon could play the guitar, but apparently he could. they both were at Leon's place, and Leon was softly strumming an enchanting tune on his guitar. Tosiek was laying on Leon's mattress, listening to the beautiful music.
"I didn't know you played the guitar." Tosiek said, lifting his head up.
Leon shrugged. "only a little, I'm not an expert or anything, so it's more of a hobby."
"you're actually really good." Tosiek said, sitting up. Leon put down the guitar and smiled at him.
"thanks. I don't usually play around people." he said.
Tosiek heard Leon's phone buzz, and he could see enough of the screen that said it was Konrad calling. Tosiek suppressed a sigh.
"what does he want?" Tosiek asked, running a hand through Leon's hair.
Leon shrugged. "I'm definitely not in the mood to find out." he pressed to ignore button on his screen and chucked his phone toward the bottom of the bed.
this warranted a chuckle from Tosiek. he pulled Leon into a hug, resting his head on his shoulder. Tosiek always felt relaxed whenever Leon was around, like the busiest parts of his life seemed to dissipate when they were spending time together. especially after everything they had been through. Maks had surprisingly been tolerable and even more friendly to Tosiek over the past few months, even after Tosiek had stolen his bike. in fact, since Maks had lied to his father about him borrowing it, he'd even been kind to Tosiek, which was the opposite of what he thought would happen. He'd even seen some reason in what Roksana had said to him, even though she posted the photos and videos. and he'd been trying to be kind to her and not blow her off like he used to. overall, life was not without struggles, but it was better. his dad had been trying to remember his pronouns and call him Tosiek, and they'd even been talking more about his mother, and how she would have been proud of who he had become, even if Tosiek still felt the tiniest bit of shame.
"what are you thinking about?" Leon whispered.
"everything." Tosiek responded. "I think things are getting better, but I don't know how to handle that."
"there's something that you're not saying." Leon pointed out, pulling away from the hug. "what is it?"
Tosiek sighed, he knew it was time to tell Leon, but it didn't stop him from being nervous.
"I see a therapist sometimes." He admitted. "I used to have lots of problems with self harm and getting over the top angry, and honestly I still fell that way sometimes. but it's not as bad anymore."
Leon gave him a reassuring smile. "you don't have to be nervous about telling me that. I was in therapy for a while as a kid, and honestly it wasn't that bad. I'm glad you're noticing those patterns and beginning to work on them."
"that's just the thing." Tosiek said,running a hand through his hair. "I guess I'm still in denial about having those problems, and they started to get better after I came out, so I guess I don't feel the need to work on them anymore, but my dad disagrees."
Leon nodded, chewing the nail on his thumb. "maybe it would be good to find some closure with how you were feeling. it's not always a bad thing to go to therapy. and maybe you could get some help with all the bullying a couple months ago. I know that affected you."
Tosiek blew out a breath. "are you on my side or not?" he asks angrily.
Leon's eyes widened. "of course I'm on your side, Tosiek. what's why I'm suggesting you get some clarity and actually try to work through these things instead of pushing them away."
the anger started to settle, and Tosiek noticed that Leon truly just wanted to best for him.
"okay." he relented. "I'll tell my dad to book me an appointment with my therapist when I get home. just know that I don't want to do this."
Leon pulled him into another hug. "I'm proud of you, you're doing the right thing."
Tosiek relaxed into Leon's embrace, and gave him a kiss on his shoulder.
"thank you." he said. "I really hope I am."
