Deception & Depression

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i wake up hearing sniffling.

i guess we all fell asleep.

but who's crying?

i look around to see where the noise is coming from.

it's luke.

"luke?" i whisper, and the sniffles continue.

no response, but he keeps crying.

i stand up and walk over to see him asleep. he must be having a bad dream.

i remember my sister would always wake me up and she would rub my head and i would stop crying and calm down.

"autumn, calm down sissy" darci said as I cried.

"why am i so weird? why can't i be normal" i asked my ten year old sister.

"this is your normal sis, this is what's normal to you. you just have to control it okay?" she said as she rubbed my head and wiped my wet eyes.

i'm seven why does this have to be normal?

i started to get my regular breaths back as she started humming the song 'shake it off' by mariah carey.

i soon drifted far away in my sleep.

I start rubbing lukes head. at first he flinches but then relaxes as he gets comfortable.

"luke, luke...wake up" i whisper into his ear but continue stroking his hair.

"hmm?" he mumbles as he sits up still crying.

"what's wrong?" i ask as he wipes his eyes.

"bad dream i guess" he speaks as he avoids eye contact but continues to wipes the tears from his stained face.

"i used to get those all the time, my sister would rub my head and hum to me while sending me back to sleep" i smile at the thought of my sister.

"i didn't mean to wake you im sorry" he says shakily.

"if you're okay im okay." i say as he lays back down.

"thanks" he says as he turns away from me.

i hear a small sniffle still and decide to put him to sleep.

i stroke his beautiful dirty blonde hair and hum a x ambassadors song and i feel him relax under my touch.

i don't even know him yet i feel so connected to him.

i listen to his even breaths and decide that he's finally asleep so i go up the long stairs and follow the hall to my bedroom.

my door swings open from my touch and i shut it longing for the comfort of my bed.

it's now almost three in the morning as i feel myself slowly drifting away to a place i love most. sleep.

➕

"autumn," i hear someone saying as their delicate fingers shake me

"hmm?" i ask turning over.

"uh, we're going out to get some breakfast...do you want to come?" i look up to see luke looking at me hopeful.

"uhm...yeah i'll be down in five." i smile at the hunk looking at me.

he smiles as he pushes himself off the floor standing to reveal his height

"hurry or we'll leave you" he smiles a million dollar smile while closing the door to my room.

and for once, im actually excited to get out and do something...with people.