Deception & Depression

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well at least i went home.

i never want to go back if that's okay.

"how are you feeling honey?" my 'mom' asks.

"terrific." i say rolling my eyes.

"luke is here to see you, im not sure where the other three are." she sighs looking at her watch

"oh, okay i guess just send him in"

"okay honey, do you want anything?" she asks

"not right now." i softly smile at her.

she nods her head and leans in to kiss my forehead.

a few minutes after she walks out, luke and all his glory walks in.

he stands at the door awkwardly waiting for me to allow him in.

"you may enter"

he struts in and lays next to me.

we don't say a word just lay there watching the fan go round and round.

"ash told me what happened..." luke starts "we all have this aroma around school...we're the bad asses the ones who are the most popular were known for being players and well...i don't know why we never acted that way towards you. we all were surprised when none of us were rude to you and we all discussed you were special we didn't know why but you were." he inhales sharply "you aren't a screw up ambresa you're so special and I hate that all of this shit has happened to you, you aren't the type of person to deserve it. i wish i could take the pain but i can't all i can do is try and help."

he looks at me with a look ive never seen.

and he kisses me.

at first im taken back but I begin to kiss back.

"wait, you have a girlfriend. this isn't okay." i push him away

"i-i- uh my bad" his cheeks grow a rose red.

"yo..." michael walks in slow

"hey" luke and myself say in sync

"i need to talk to her luke so go downstairs with the others." he sighs and shakes his hair.

luke gets up and walks out.

"you good?" he asks

"yeah, i guess"

"im, serious...are you okay?"

"i won't ever be okay michael."

"dont say that, don't start please."

"start what michael?"

"dont start feeling sorry for yourslef."

i laugh

"i am sorry"

"so luke?"

"no, no, no."

"just give it some time and things will fall into place. that girl means nothing to him and why he pulled a stunt like that i am not sure, but i love you and if i have to beat my best friends ass i will okay?" he speaks with the sternest look in his face.

"i love you too." i smile and he kisses my head and walks out of my door leaving me there with nothing to do but think.

what if i just left? no. i couldn't do that to them. why did luke have to make me feel like a...girl.

i hate feelings, they suck.