God's Words, My Voice

Pain

Pain. It's not an easy thing. In fact, pain is probably the hardest thing in the world to deal with. No matter where you go or who you are, you have a way to deal with pain. For me, I cry a lot, but most importantly I dig into God's word and let him comfort me. It helps. But, for a lot of people who don't believe and God, and even people who do (including me sometimes), like to deal with pain in the wrong ways. Some people like to deal with pain by self harm, like cutting themselves. Others like to deal with pain by changing themselves like making themselves throw up, working out, eating, or putting more expensive clothes or makeup on. In my opinion, the worst type of dealing with pain is dumping it on other people, causing even more pain. This is also known as dumping your baggage on someone else. A.K.A bullies. Now bullies aren't always horrible people who push people into lockers, take people's lunch money, or give swirlies. Bullies can be anyone who take out their pain on others. I've even been a bully before by taking out my anger on other people. Trust me, it doesn't make anything better.

When I was on a trip somewhere, I had a friend who was not saved. He/She will remain anonymous for the sake of not causing any trouble. Well, this friend had a lot of trouble opening up to people because they had social anxiety and trust issues. Though, for some odd reason this person decided to open up to me about some things. We would talk and they would tell me about how when they were in school people made rumours about he/she and he/she would get very upset. I remember them telling me that he/she would cut theirself when they were being bullied. I he/she said, "It takes a lot to get to a place, where you feel so terrible about yourself that you decide to hurt yourself, just to make the voices inside your head shut up. The voices that tell you you're a slut and terrible and not good enough. It's not for attention like many may think. Not for me anyways." I was shocked to here about all of this. This same person also told me that they were bolemic for 2 years. I told them that it was very brave of them to share that with me, and that I was glad that they felt comfortable with telling me. I also shared some pain I had in my life, and I explained how I dealt with it by trusting in God. I also told he/she that they should never base their self worth off of other people. I told them that the only person that matters is God, and what he thinks of you. I also told them that they needed to know that they were special and had God given gifts and that God loved them no matter what they did.

And that's just the thing. Pain isn't easy to deal with, especially when it makes you feel terrible about yourself. But, if you accept Christ into your heart, you can find strength in him and his word. You have to remind yourself that people of this world don't matter compared to him, and that your self worth is based off of what he thinks of you. The best thing is that God will never make you feel bad about yourself because he loves you. You're never too terrible for God or unacceptable to him. Every sin is forgivable because he loves you. With Him, every bond is broken, every weight is taken off your shoulders, every memory of pain is comforted, every prayer brings peace and love, every prayer is heard, and no sacrifices have to be made because he gave the ultimate sacrifice. He loves you more than anyone on this earth can love you, and it's so unimaginable how much He does love you. You have to remember that. I suggest that if you don't believe in God that you start. He is here. He is alive. He is the only permanent comfort that your gonna find. My friend was struggling because he/she had no permanent comfort. The temporary things of this world will do nothing but for just a second, and then it disappears leaving more pain than before. The permanent comfort that you need is the love of God and His scripture. He will give you peace in your mind, love in your heart, and all your fears will disappear. Pain will never not be on this earth because it came in when sin came in. But, you will always have someone to go to, someone to make the pain go away, someone to give you comfort and to love you no matter what you've done. It's hard to believe, I know. That's because He is God, and if he was understandable he wouldn't be our God, he would just be one of us. Trust me, believing in him was the best decision I ever made, and I never regret it. And every pain I've dealt with, parent divorce, family deaths, several marriages and divorces that my dad has went through, and much more, I have always found wonderful comfort in my Lord. Love you all, and God bless you.