An Unexpected Gift Part II

Chapter 4- 'I wanted to die!'

To Love where Love is Non-existent

Is to See without the ability of sight

To understand to Intensity of Love

Is to yearn with a thousand intensity

"Baby? My beautiful baby? Wake up! Talk to Mama. Can you hear me mi amor?" She said as she stroked my cheek.

I took a deep inhale, the air felt new. I was groggy, and felt like I hit my head on the floor except I never fell or did I? I could hear my mom's worried voice clearly but my motor skills were a bit retarded.

"Mooooom" I replied slowly opening my eyes

"Wha, what, what's happening?" I muttered while I opened my eyes to see My sister, Demetri & mom pacing and wandering the room.

"Oh my God! Thank you" my mom expressed in relief as she came towards my bedside.

I felt different, I slowly moved my hand to check on my swollen stomach that always blocked my toes.

"Mom? Wha, where, where are the babies?" I asked

"Mom! Where are MY baby's mom?"

I searched the room frantically as they were nowhere in sight. I felt tears welling up in my eyes because I'm not sure what happened but I know my stomach was now empty. I wasn't sure I would have been able to love the little shits but I knew I would've gotten time to try instead of having the option torn from my womb. My eyes wandered to Demetri as he had a dark ominous look on his face, the darkest I'd ever seen. Staring, deep in thought. I pleaded.

"Demetri, what happened? Where.."

Before I could finish my question he stormed out of the room. I lay in shock as everyone looked on in silence, what did I do? And what the hell is going on? Where are my fucking parasites!!

My mom saw my disbelief and despair, she gently took my hand, I met her gaze finally

"Baby, you had a Placenta Abruption, your ummm, your placenta detached and you had to go into an emergency surgery or we would have lost all three of you, luckily Demetri moved when he did. We would have lost... I couldn't bear it mi amor" I watched as her previously red eyes became watery again as she fought to speak through the sobs.

"Mom... No" she started to sigh as I mirrored her expressions

"Moom where are, where.." she held my hand tighter

"I'm sorry my love but they didn't make it"

I couldn't process the information, again, it was like staring at a blank page while your brain is spaced.

"What do you.... What do you mean, wha, where are they?"

My eyes scanned the room to my sister, who despite our differences knew what it meant to be there for the family.

"Baby"

My mom tried to hold my hand again but I pulled it away and curled into the fetal position. Turning my back.

"We are here if you need..."

I sobbed while I stared blankly at the wall

"I need some time to think".......... My tone was dead

"I'll see you tomorrow mom" I spat

"Baby I'm soooo sorry" I continued staring.

Slowly but hesitantly out of the corner of my eye, I see them leave the room. My emotions were a wreck, why was I going through this? Where was Demetri, where are my twins?