Do you see that girl?Do you even know her? Yes,its the other side of me.I live from the darkness I have an empty soul,everybody hates me,I mean no one ever understands of what I feel inside .I just HATE my life nobody needs me anyway,a jerk like me is NOTHING!.
I can't decide weather to live or die,instead I rather be by my own ,because like I said a jerk like me is NOTHING!!
Throughout my life I have always been afraid of losing the people I love so much,but then sometimes I wonder is there anyone who's afraid of losing me!?Yes,im sick of crying tired of trying,yeah,I am smiling ,but in the inside im just dying.
In one side of me,you see me as a person with a smile on my face without facing any problems,in the other side you cant recognize it.Why?because I hide all my problems behind my smile and my painful tears ,and behind that same smile is a world of pain.You think you know me,but you have no idea.
All I feel is just depression,loneliness,and most of all HATE.It's not just okay for me to be feeling tjis way everyday.
People judging me of who to be,and how I should control my life,and who to love.I just cant keep pretending and telling my friends that,"im okay" when im not.
In fact, i feel sorry for how many people keep on hurting me ,but apperantly I just see that same fucking person doing it over and over again ,and that person is me.
Like i said this my story this is based on true story and some parts,are not.I do still feel depressed and lonely all the time but thank God i have real friends and my sister that are helping getting throught this pain .You know you can win this fight like my favorite band member Andy Biersack said in his song, "They don't need to understand" ,but in the end im not afraid to die. X .X
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Just A Girl Story
غير روائيThis story is just about myself. I will talk about my feelings, write down poems and quotes I made or I like. I will tell you interesting things about my life etc. Enjoy!!
