Marvel Women One Shots

Aftermath- 🤬 (M.H)

Warnings: Aftermath of a toxic relationship when it ends.
Requested by: Marina61237
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Aftermath by Vault Boy- Ended the relationship and moved away to get away from their former partner. Despite his attempts to cut them off, he still feels the impact of their actions, blaming them for making him feel weak and dissatisfied with himself. He is frustrated and angry that it was not enough, even though he was told he was loved.

Yn's POV
I moved away and changed my number when I did it
I hoped that cutting you off would make me feel different
I know I'm weaker than I probably seem
I can't lie, I blame you for everything

It has been two years since I've broken up with Maria. After the breakup, I request an immediate transfer from Shield in New York. As much as Fury is reluctant, he knows how hard it is for me to watch Maria with Daisy. Moving to Russia, changing my number. I hope cutting her off will make me feel different.

I remember the day clearly. Remembering my big smile as I hug my best friend goodbye. Natasha is the only one who knows that I'm transferring out. She knows I'm just putting up the strong front, knowing I'm weaker than I portray. "Call me if you need me. Don't need to hide when you're with me," she whispers as she gives me one last squeeze before I board the jet.

Looking back, I try to find the familiar silhouette I'm so used to seeing but fail. I don't know why I still looked forward to seeing her. I can't lie, but I blame her for everything. I blame her for making me fall in love with her. I blame her for making me trust her with my heart. I blame her for breaking my heart. I blame her for making me so weak.

All pins and needles when I meet somebody new and I
Get all choked up whenever they ask about you and I
Feel so pathetic and I want to scream
I can't lie, I blame you for everything
And I think you know exactly what I mean

The first few months were a disaster. I was all cooped up in the house, drinking to my oblivion. Until Fury received reports from the Russian counterparts, he sent someone over. Sharon Carter. I never met her officially as she was away on a mission and was sent to babysit Steve Rogers immediately. I was nervous and wary when she arrived.

I took a deep breath to swallow the tears threatening to spill when she asked about what had happened. My heart hurts so much whenever I try to talk about Maria. She sighed as I walked away, feeling pathetic and wanting to scream. I didn't want to let her see me in this state. Meeting someone new in this vulnerable state is not exactly ideal.

Maria would know what I mean. She knows how weak I feel when I open up to someone. So she never pushed me but let me be comfortable on my terms. She said, and I quote, "When you're ready. I'll be waiting." That's what makes me fall in love with her in the first place. Maria was the first one who made me feel comfortable expressing myself and letting myself be vulnerable with her. But yet I'm here crying in Sharon's arms while she comforts me.

You really fucked me up
Screaming at my mirror like I'm fucking drunk
Question who I am and what I could have done
Because you're the one who told me that you were in love, oh, oh
You really fucked me up
Close my eyes, can't think of anything but us
Made me feel like I'm the one who's not enough
But you're the one who told me that you were in love

Maria really fucked me up. I couldn't function anymore. I can't recognize myself in the mirror. My eyes were dull, red-shot, and hollow. Who am I looking at in the mirror? Why am I in this plight? Could I have done anything to avoid it? Could I have done anything more for Maria not to fall out of love with me? I could have avoided it by not falling in love with her.