𝙱𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝙰𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗 (reader x Tom Kaulitz)

Chapter 11

We arrived at the club where the after party took place. There were waiting us a lot of drinks from all of the kinds, but if i am being honest, i am really not the type who really enjoys the alcohol so i just drank some juice.

By the middle of the night, everyone was already tipsy, but the chick went crazy and drank over 15 glasses of alcohol and that was noticeable. She couldn’t even walk straight, but, somehow, she managed to go straight to Tom, who was also a little bit more than just tipsy. I was on the couch with Gustav, talking and of course gossiping, but I couldn't ignore the fact that her hands were all over Tom’s body and I couldn't get over the fact that he was unbothered. My manic moment took away all my attention from Gustav and when he asked me for the 3rd or 4th time the same question I realized that I care way too much about him and what he is doing. We are not together anymore and I think we won’t be something more than “friends with benefits” in the near future. I started to talk with Gustav again and I decided that this was better than paying attention to those assholes. Me and Gustav had a whole conversation without me zoning out and I can't lie, it was pretty interesting, but then I heard some cheering from the other side of the room and when I looked that way my face and heart dropped. Tom was kissing that bitch. I couldn’t believe the fact that he was the one to kiss her after everything he told me, after he begged me to get back together. I was way too angry and disappointed so I got up and walked out the club. I called myself a taxi and went straight to the hotel, even though I felt so embarrassed that I wanted to take the first flight back to Milano.

As i was falling asleep i heard someone calling my name from the hall of the hotel. I thought I was dreaming, but the voice was getting louder and louder, so I got up and went to the door eye to check. When i reached the door someone started knocking and then i realized i wasn’t dreaming. I opened the door to reveal Tom leaning against the door frame.
“What the heck, Tom?” I said half asleep. “Can I come in, please?” he said. I could feel the smell of alcohol in his breath and I wasn't in the mood to deal with this. “No. You can’t! Go into your room or go fuck your little whore.” I said trying to close the door, but he stopped it and then he kneeled, begging me to let him in. his eyes were red from the alcohol and maybe other substances. Because I wanted it to end faster I let him in. “ You smell like shit. Go sit on the bed and I'll bring you some water.” as I brought him the glass of water, I told him “ You have only three minutes, starting from now, to tell me what the hell you want and after that you’ll go straight to your room.” he looked at me with teary eyes and as he started sobbing he told me “Please, Y/n, please forgive me for everything i have done wrong to you!” I couldn’t believe my eyes and ears so I wanted to go away, but he stopped me and dragged me into his lap and he buried his head in the crook of my neck. I could hear his loud sobs as he begged me for forgiveness and I knew that drunk people always tell the truth so I said something I might regret later “ I forgive you, dumb fuck” and I kissed his forehead, while laying him on the bed. "I'm so so sorry, y/n…so sorry" he continued crying even more. I really don't know what to do anymore. Now he says that he's sorry and everything and then he kisses someone else. I don't know if I can trust him. Maybe he wants me to forgive him, but still be just friends, or he wants something more. Yeah no, I don't want to deal with these thoughts at this hour. "It's okay, I understand. Now please just go to sleep." I said, even though I don't understand, I just really want to sleep.

"I know I was a bad boyfriend and I know you can't put all of your trust in me again, but please give me a chance. I'll prove that this is something more than just words." Tom said, hugging me closer to his body. "Okay, okay. I'll give you another chance. Now shut up and sleep." I said, slightly annoyed. I know he's not going to remember anything in the morning, so it's not worth thinking so much about this situation.

"Good morning sleeping beauty!" I said to Tom as soon as I saw him opening his eyes.
"Hmm.." is all he could manage to say, as he closed his eyes. "Come onnnn, wake up. We're going back to Milano." Finally, these past days have been.. intense… .