just diffrent

chapter one

"come on Harry what takes you this long?" Ron asked slamming his fist on the bathroom door. indeed what does take him this long? The uncomfortable feeling in this clothes that make him this masculine? Harry was searching for an answer when the door opened. Today was the Yule ball. He wasn't about to dance or whatever, he just was there for the support for his friends.

"What?" Harry asked. "you look good enough in that come on." Ron didn't know how Harry felt about himself. Harry only nodded and was pulled out of the bathroom by Ron. "I still can't believe you don't have anyone." Ron said. Harry didn't have anyone because he didn't feel okay around girls but wasn't going to admit that to the whole school by taking a boy to the ball.

Harry saw Draco walking in alone at the ball, he felt relieved that he wasn't the only one without a date. Harry sat alone on a stool at the bar while his friends were dancing with their date, he felt someone sitting next to him. "thought you would have had a date." Draco whispered. Harry didn't look at him. the well-known Malfoy smirk was placed on Draco's face. "you don't have anyone either." Harry spat back at him. "I don't need anyone." Draco said and his smirk grew even wider. "why are you talking to me?" Harry asked. "I saw you during the task you were scared." Draco said his smirk was still on his face and sometimes Harry just wanted to hit Draco so his smirk would fade away, he didn't have the guts for it. "what are you going to do? Bully me with it?" Harry asked. "that was one of my things on top of the list, but then I saw blackmailing." Draco said. Harry looked away and picked his drink up to go. "but then I discovered something about you." Draco said. "great something more I don't know about myself and you do;" Harry said. "I think you know it, I saw you doing it in the locker room." Draco said. Harry thought deep about what he had been doing. "the lipstick." Draco said. Harry felt a dark red shade on his own cheeks. "don't tell anyone." Harry said. "I won't." Draco said. it stayed silent for a bit. "how did you come out to parents or friends?" Draco asked. "not." Harry said being oblivious as always. "so you're in the closet?" Draco asked. "I almost see the Narnia." Harry joked. "the what?" Draco asked. "never mind it's a muggle thing." Harry said and looked at his leg who was moving up and down, he was doing it again. you can't run from this conversation. he felt a hand on his knee. "it's fine, don't panic." Draco his voice became softer and why was he being this gentle? "what do you feel you are?" Draco asked. "I don't feel like we have to talk about this in public." Harry said and stood up. "fine, I know a private place." Draco took Harry to the broom cupboard on the second floor, he saw things he thought Draco owned, because they looked expansive and like he owned them. "this is a cupboard no one uses. Like my diary is in here and no one ever noticed it." Draco said. "why are you doing this to me?" Harry asked. "I don't like to be rude." Draco said and sat down. Harry sat somewhere else in the small room. "so are you going to answer?" Draco asked. Harry thought about it. "I don't feel like I have to label it." Harry answered. "okay? So if you had to label it?" Draco asked. "then I feel like I'm nothing, I feel like I'm a girl and I feel like I'm a boy. I'm also gay." Harry answered. "but if you aren't a gender how can you be gay?" Draco asked. "I don't know." Harry answered and looked over at the boy. "I think you're brave telling me this, because if I wasn't pansexual myself I would've told the whole school." Draco chuckled. "but I know it's hard to be who you like to be." Draco said and looked in Harry's eyes. "do you have a crush?" Harry asked. "my parents are going to kill me if they ever knew. It's Ron actually." Draco said. "I'm sorry to break the news to you, he's homophobe, that's the reason I never told anyone." Harry said. Draco looked in disbelief at the raven-haired boy. "if you don't mind I'll go back." Harry said. "why?" Draco asked. "why? Maybe because I don't want my friends to worry I just left with my enemy?" Harry answered with a sarcastic undertone. "stupid question. I'll stay here, alone." Draco said he sounded rather sad. "sorry, I didn't mean to make you sad, I'll stay. I don't have a date so no one is really waiting for me." Harry said and sat back down this time a bit closer to Draco. "do you feel comfortable in the this you're wearing now?" Draco asked. "no, I just wear them because I have to." Harry answered and lied down on the floor. "you said you had a diary right?" Harry asked. "I don't get it, why do you do things you don't like?" Draco tried to avoid the word 'diary'. "do you always do what you like?" Harry asked. "no, but it's not the same." Draco answered. "we look a lot more like each other then you think." Harry said. "we're both gay but it stops there." Draco said. "it's so much more." Harry said and leaned closer to Draco. "we're both scared of what our family would say." Harry whispered. "my family would kill me." Draco answered and looked at Harry. "your family loves you, they wouldn't be mad." Draco said. "they do love me." Harry said. he stopped a bit. "and I hope you find someone who's parents love you too." Harry said. Draco blushed. "do you think you will loose Hermione too, if you tell them?" Draco asked. "I think so." Harry answered. "I wouldn't like that, knowing if you come out you will loose your friends." Draco said. "if I do, I'll start again with my life. I'll be still Harry, with different friends maybe a different house. I asked Dumbledore to resort me next year." Harry said. "why?" Draco asked. "I don't feel like a Gryffindor." Harry answered and tried to avoid eye contact. "well, if you get sorted in Slytherin feel welcome by me." Draco held out his hand. "Harry." He said. Harry smiled because Draco was using his first name, the first time he did it in four years. "thanks, Draco." Harry said and shook his hand. "and even if you're not sorted in Slytherin you're welcome if you don't feel home in your common room." Draco said. "will do." Harry said. "let's talk about something more fun. How do you flirt?" Draco asked. "oh, I'll just ask do you want McDonald's if they say yes I'll take them and start telling they're cute and I like when they laugh that kind of things." Harry answered. "what is McDonald's?" Draco asked. "oh, it's a fast food restaurant and it is kind of bad food, but fun to go." Harry said. Draco chuckled. "muggles have strange way to live." Draco said. "I didn't grow up with muggles, everyone thinks my mother's a muggle-born, I have two dads." Harry said. "you do?" Draco asked. Harry nodded. "I'm part of the noble family of Black." Harry answered. Draco stared at Harry with disbelieve. "my mother is too, so me too." Draco said. "we're going to visit her cousins with Christmas." Draco said. Harry smiled.Tik hier om te beginnen met schrijven