Forever~ Lost...

Flowers

Hanahaki disease;

The flowers of death

It's over before it even begins.

Before it's even known

Before you even get close

The pain of losing someone

Yet you never had them

The pain of loving someone

Yet they would never give it back

The way your eyes sparkled

When you saw her

The way your smile stretched

When you listened to her

The way your laugh echoed

When talked to her

Her

Her

Her

It was all because of her

It hurt knowing that i would never be the reason

The reason for all your laughter

But I never wanted to tell you

'Cuz I never wanted to let go

My love for you was unconditional

So just seeing you smile was enough

So I was going to hold on

Despite knowing that I was being wronged

The reality was painfully obvious

I knew exactly how everything would end

I knew that I was simply fighting a losing war

I knew how I could save myself

I knew

I knew

...

I knew but I only waited

Waited for the death that was to come

As time went by

The pile of death only grew

The flowers that represented

Death,

Love,

Stubbornness,

Reluctance;

My entire life.

Hanahaki disease;

The flowers of death

My stupid love which stained the bathroom floor

All petals and gore

The mountain of death which gradually built up

Burying my smiling corpse