Forever~ Lost...

Silent Whispers

What is this feeling?

Like I belong here

But I don't

Like people care about me

But they don't

Lining up are my train of thoughts -

Only known to me

Never shown to anyone else -

Everything that I think

Limitless possibilities that lie within -

Yearning to be seen

I hate this feeling

Like I want to laugh

But I don't

Like I want to smile

But I can't

All the chains around me -

Forever not visible

Reaching for some friends, however

Always to no avail

I wonder why I can't catch up,

Did I follow the wrong trail?

Why do I have this feeling?

Like I should talk

But I shouldn't

Like I would be happy

But I wouldn't

Eager to be free are

My emotions and my feelings, which

Pierce through my soul.

The aching feeling in my chest,

Yields all the secrets preventing me from my goal.

How do I get rid of this feeling?

Like I'm useful

But I'm not

Like I'm needed

But I'm not

Learning to live a good life, I'm trying

Over and over again, realising it

Simply isn't as easy as I thought.

Tick tock, as the time goes on, I wonder...

Can I really be happy?